Four Wonderful Hour......

I had never told anyone about this, the four wonderful hour that I had experience once before, it was June 2005, It was 4 days before this person burfday, that we met. This person took me out for a movie, I still remember the movie title, It was “Mr & Mrs Smith”. The sweet thing about this day is because the person was asleep while the movie was on, but this person was holding my hand. It was sweet indeed.

The next thing we know we were having asam laksa together, the asam laksa was not that great. But you can't beat the company I was with. People might not think the person as a beautiful person but I sure did. My eyes saw the point of light on this person left shoulder and the eyes was shining. Just like what I was thought in the tradition of the sun.

Then it started the 4 hour most pleasurable moment in my life, I really can believe that is even possible to be kissing and romancing for that long. It did. (sound like legally blonde dialog huh?) but it was undoubted was the most pleasurable moment of my life.

Although my teaching thought me that this person was my soul mate. I understand that in one lifetime they could be more that one soul mate encounter. And because of this, the pain and sorrow of love are felt. My teaching of the tradition of the sun, if we really want to get rid of this pain and sorrow then
we have to renounce love it self. Is that even possible? I ask this to myself once. And here I am now.

Though I might look like I have renounce love, in actually I still believe in it. It's just that I avoid it so that I would not feel the pain. Strangely it was a phone call that got me thinking that I got over the last soul mate encounter. It does not cause me pain me anymore, I was happy. Truly I am. I do keep dropping that person a msg or two. Just to say hello.

But the past few days I was dreaming about this person again. The first two day was really weird cause this person was unleashing the anguish the person keep all the while from me, but last nite was the most intense one. At last the ending was that 4 hour kiss al over again..when I woke up, my body felt warm and dizzy like what I felt 4 years ago. How can that be? I thought I was over this person. But then again the pain was not there. Just the warmth. I knew then I was over this person just my soul does not allow me to forget the were once I felt that much pleasure. I would like to thank this person. But I don't want to bother this person life so I wrote this. And hope this person would read it. Thanks for the memory..

The Huggable Ben

P/s I was enjoying the OST for La Cordo D'oro Primo Paso. Especially the music from Tchaikovsky, beautiful music indeed.

Teman Tapi Mesra….

Ni satu teman saya, ceta dier cam ni, dier cam ben gak, dah terlalu terluka dalam relationship, so dier pun adopt teknik ben gak, ramaikan kawan daripada “special one” Because pada pendapat kteorang baik focus on kerjaya daripada pening2 pasal relationship.

Tapikan, teman saya sorang ni, bukan sekadar teman, but “teman tapi mesra” , He set the boundaries and the rule pastu kira cam ok ler, makin lama makin ramai dan mesra plak “teman” beliau. Sikap caring, and romantic beliau boleh dikatakan tahap paling tinggi ler dalam arena “teman tapi mesra” ni. Tapi semalam beliau datang bercerita dengan ben.

Minggu lepas hampir kesemua skandal ops.. silap “teman-teman” beliau nak serius plak.. hehe Sesuatu yang menghairankan ialah. Semua? Dalam minggu yang sama? Peh.. ko dah kategori Playboy ker ni? Paris Hilton pun kalah dow ngan ko… hehehe…

Tapi nasihat saya, Well dalam teman tapi mesra ni, kte kene letak boundaries yang kukuh, klu pihak sebelah rasa nak seberang boundaries tue, maka lihat ler klu diri sendiri sedia untuk kembali ke arena relationship ni. Klu dah sedia maka kene stop ler jadi teman tapi mesra kat pihak-pihak yang lain tue. Tapi biler semua nak mintak serius… Peh… you in trouble bro….. But saya faham sukar sebab dah sayang kat semua kan.. klu boleh nak serius kat semua, tapi soalan saya mampu ker? Larat ker? Makan tongkat ali hari2 ker? Hehehe…

Apa-apa pun gud luck bro dengan apa yang ko pilih… hehehe

The huggable ben..