The Impossible hugs…..

Nope I did not go to the cinema last week to anyone who was wondering.. hehehehe( kantoi..!!) well besa ler.. liar semacam jer bebaru ni.. hehehe….

Where have I gone to? Well there was a lot of stuff I need to handle recently, and recuperate also, from my project’s, a few project I have planed and I was finishing up the final touch.

Major thing happening? Nothing really, just that I cancel my credit card recently.. Why?... I figure out that the card was a hole in my cash flow!(only those who read Robert Kiyosaki books understand this..) but it true, before I actualy can control myself, but recently? nope I almost reach rm1000 last month, aiyo… so bahaya…then I remember someone told me about the card trap and the cash flow theory… I realize is the rite thing to do…

What is with the title? Well I got an impossible hug just now, I been watching this person for some time , actually to be precise, since the ministry choir training, and finally I got the impossible hugs, although for that person, it was a friendly hugs, but well I am still blushing now, I mean it was really impossible to get that hug, hehehe.. I wanted that hugs to last longer but well.. hehehe… fun to blush after sometime……. Hehehehe… I am still happy and blushing, or as my friends say verangan….sanggat!!... hehehehe

Rasa cam nak gi shopping (opss lupa card dah potong… hahahaha…!!)


The huggable ben….also the cardless ben … isk……

Wow… I got my first client…!

Not really my client lar.. but I was thinking of creating my own agency, and my agency will be managing individual, preparing them for the job market, basically to finding them a job that suit them and their qualifications, just like Jobstreet, but more personnel with the client lar… creating a client friendly agency.

See I am evolving, now business minded already, hehehehe….

I am happy for Aishah my first success client, hope she be able to cope with her new career, now I still have a few left which I have kind of manager block, because unable to match anything for them yet. But all in all I am happy with it,

So to my friends, dah habis blajaq atau tgh cari keje tue, give me a msg yer… hehehe


The Huggable Ben

Whoops….a nice weekends indeed..

Lot’s of work for the past week, including the GOE-EGDMS course, which is like creating a Friendster account, just that, we can attach stuff for our bosses. I am not saying that the system is as user friendly as Friendster, but the system is pretty much the same.

At the last minute, have to travel, but well I would say a much needed trip, just to get away form it all, I came back this morning to find that my table is clean, of course I finish thing up last Friday before the trip, hehehe… see I am so efficient ( masuk bakul angkat sendiri siot!). Felt really good and even got in like before 7 am, record time for me, I was the second person to arrive at the office this morning. hehehe….this is only possible because the bus arrive early this time, was able to catch up the 1st bus to the office..hehehe…

How was the weekends, well let me see, after all that happen last week it was great just lay back and relax for a while get my mind back in line after such a stressful month I guess. I mean try losing all your important document and after that, try getting them all back, trust me you need the rest after that.

Last week after I got into such a hectic few last day of the week, I almost lose it I guess until I finally got the chance to “release it all” on a very hot session indeed, see, divine intervention, the big guy up there still love me, he send this little thing that perk you up, but you never seem to notice who is it from and what is it for. Although It was very naughty, it is what I needed to relax even more.. and the whole weekend, nothing was able to disturb me, accept that I forgot my dvd there, and I feet hurt from all the walking around the trip, “ouch!” Other than that it was a nice weekend trip indeed…


The Relax Huggable Ben

Geram……..sakit hati betul…..

This was a very unlucky day for me, really unlucky day siot.. jer….. baru jer tadi I realize that my wallet was stolen, I lost my identity card, my ATM card, few hundred cash and my charm… which I am really mad, cause I have to spend the whole day tomorrow, just to get back all the card, forget the cash that totally gone, but the effect to get back all the important document payah siot…plus the charm was reaaly one of it’s kind where am I gonna find that again.

Badan dah lemah dah ni…..takde tenaga dah nak pikiq….. was really mad at myself because I think this is the first time that I was really careless, damm careless indeed.
And that wallet was a present, a leather wallet lagi tue.. geram siot… geram sesanggat!!!!

A toast another hectic day ahead….may it be a learning day for me…


The Careless Huggable Ben

Over exceed myself…….

Today I find myself only able to finish 95% of my work, although I did some extra overtime because I have to attend a course today, I still unable to finish it, 3 hours of non stop work, still I end up 5 % short of completing everything. I felt a bit disappointed since someone had highly recommended me to a few head hunters, who actually offer a very good position indeed, but I “short of” already have a plan, just 8 more years to complete the process. But I am very thankful to who has recommended me to that company. If I was not attach to the government, I would have taken the post on the spot. Thank you very much.

When I reach home at 10 pm just now, my body was so tired, after my bath, it was straight to bed until well just now, when I woke up. I realize that over exceed myself today.

Maybe my workaholic-ism is just a defense mechanism, for me to keep my mind of something else. Like missing someone so much, that well it kind of hurt. But yeah until I find other ways to handle this, well work…work….work…

To another working day ahead… Hugs everyone!!

The Huggable Ben

Unnecessary guide…….

First of all I like to say thanks to all the well wishes from all of you, yeap I am doing better but still under observation, same goes to the recipient.

A tired early part of the week, Monday was a pre hectic day, then yesterday a full live hectic day then today which suppose to be the resting period, did not turn as well as I thought. Did not get the much needed rest just an hour of nap, before lunch. And back to back to work…… a bit feverish but well nothing the “Penadol Soluble” cant fixes.

Before I went back home just now, was checking on my email and messages, and then yet a again a friend, who is still trying to “GUIDE” me the way… for salvation or something which I don’t condone, just that every thing you try dear it just show that you are the one who is not sure of the path your taken, I wont be surprise that one day I meet you at the place where you always oppose, because of it deviate nature.. But I sense from all your massage, there is a deep hidden lust to do those entire things you always advise me not to do.

Whut ever lar my dear friend, there is no right and wrong to this, just a matter of time, I do appreciate you worry about my spiritual guide, but well I hope that you find you true self and then accept that we all have our own path that we take to walk. And as I say I am an angel in the making, all wings and HALO hehehehe…..

A Passionate thought…….

It the day I have been waiting for, the day when I could cuddle you warm body, your arms around me and that sweet lips whisper the word “I miss you”. The sweetness overwhelms me, and I am diabetic so to much sweetness can make me lose control.

The cold night air, make your warm body the most comfortable thing to hug and those sweet lips, is the best candy to kiss and lick. When it our tongue touches the energy surrounds our body forming a unbreakable bond of passion and lust.

For hours I would cuddle with you, knowing that it might not be something I would able to do as often as I wanted, for you are not mine, but I cherish each second of it.

Of the entire thing I have done in my life, this is the one thing I will never regret. One passionate night with you.


P/s and they say I am not romantic… apa ler…belum cuba belum tau sudah cuba hari2 mau tau!! Hehehehe

The Huggable Ben