Are you serious? Do you really think I care?

I put this status message up a yesterday, and I got a ton’s or reply, asking what happen, what did they miss and all, just then I realize I haven’t been updating my blog recently. Yeah I had been really quite for the past few weeks. A friend actually ask if I were like hospitalized or something because I always at least update my bulletin. Well I am not hospitalized or anything it just that is almost the end of the year and the amount of work load is piling up. Plus I am having my year end holiday soon so my boss is really piling it up.

What up with the KG and stuff? Nothing much actually. For the past week I was making a effort to finish almost everything that need to be done. So if I go on my holiday, it would not affect my unit so much, I mean there only three functional staff there, and one other staff who have enough experience. Let’s just see what this year will bring. What new issue it will bring? So exciting rite…. hehehe

I need to finish something before I can continue on with another.. but well I still working on this, problem is there just to much for me to finish and time have not been very kind to me at the least. So I planning and fine tuning everything so that I finish it without any a hassle.

Let’s get back to the status message. It was meant for someone indeed but only the person concern would understand it. So if you don’t, it means that that statement was not for you! Hehehe, funny that everybody thinks it was for them, but when I ask why they think so, they themselves aren’t able to answer it.

I have so much to plan and finish, I finally realize I don’t give a damn about other stuff, and making a statement that I am miserable here because a petit issue, well the answer is my status message… “are you serious? Do you really think I care?” and some addition to that” That I give a damn about that?” ….. seriously.. if you think I do, you seriously need help!

Hehehe.. that my mental notes for now…. Until the next blog…. Hugs!!! To all!!

The Huggable Ben…

Happy Anniversary To Me….!!

Yes! Yesterday on the 9 of November 2008 was my 2nd anniversary of being a responsible (really?) mature (are you sure about this?) Adult (felt old with this statement!) but indeed it’s been two years as a Government Officer, although is not really going to be where I work for the rest of my career life. I hope one day I could be like my friend who is having their interview as a secretary at a Malaysian Embassy Oversea…(Europe and Japan wait for me!!) I wish you guys all the best and if you got the post, I would like souvenirs when you guys come back home.

Had a very nice dinner yesterday a buffet seafood restaurant at Sunway. Didn’t ate a lot, just enjoying the chat while waiting for the food to be boil in the steamboat. The ice cream was nice though. Was fun chatting and getting everyone together. Fun part about it is that our counterpart north! In Penang was also having their dinner at a buffet restaurant too. Funny that happened rite….

Few more week to go before my big holiday plan to commerce cant really wait, but I have to, and have to put on the best face to face the yearly appraisal season “The SKT” is due soon.. hehehe…hopefully this year I at least could score more than last year.

Week left until we say goodbye to 2008….

The Huggable Ben Mashimaro

It Still Hurt……

Well I been quite recently, if you ask me why? I am not really sure but probably I just need to take some time for myself. Because even though it’s been a year, it still hurt…

I was thinking, shouldn’t a heart be heal through time? Shouldn’t I be feeling better by now? But I am not, I spent almost the whole nite, thinking, meditating and calming my self with all the happy memory I had the whole year. It made me smile a for a while and it make me felt better only to find out that it still wasn’t enough. But I have my family and friends. With you guys around, I know I will heal, although slow, but I am confident enough I will be.

So, a friend asks about an entry about the flirting with someone who I was not supposed too… what was the development on that story? Nothing… I have been very quite lately really quite… why are you looking at me like that? :-P!

My office got a new Supervisor…I don’t really know why? But this new superv is kinda Cute! My friends know my definition of cute but, physically the superv is not my definition… but the superv have a kinda nurturing aura that actually creates a situation where you like to bond with the superv….. ewww… kinda weird I guess … but I like the new superv which I am gonna call “KG admin” why? Is something you want but you can’t have… the one desire which we place in the dark…that “KG” so, there is a “KG Jusa” “KG aras1” and strangely I have to admit it to myself “KG admin”

I felt much better after writing this blog! Hope you all enjoy your day! And these last two month of the year 2008! Hugs and kisses!!

Huggable Ben

Hectic Week Indeed….

What happen after raya?.....All the Open Houses lar… hehehe.. Yeap until today I have been to a total of 9 Open Houses and yeah all have plenty of food indeed, but I to maintan the diet I am on…which it compensate with Hydro Diet and Herbal Tea… hehehehe…

Okay… i miss someone so much.. I really wanted to talk to this person, but the problem is, this person is using his disappearing act, which until now I don’t understand why… I miss the friendly chat and advise given… I don’t know why I like to listen to advise although I know what I want I want people to tell me what it is, and this person understand it, I thought we were becoming a good friends before this person just wasn’t there..so much stuff to chat about yet…. This person just wasn’t there…Maybe this person is busy with work, but a simple hello would be nice rite?

The Ministry Open house this year was great indeed, not just that I got to actually taste almost all the food serve in every stall, there was a also all the cute people around… hhehehe secara habis2an mencuci mata…

The Department open house was great too..cause this year I was in full Raya Attaire hehehe.. I be putting up the pic soon… hehehehe….the nice part about the Dept Open house is that I was spending so much time talking sarawakian with Uncle Bester which is our lawyer from Sibu, Until the other State Head came by and join in the chat, although we was back chatting in Malay, just that Uncle Bester was really fun to talk to, He does not treat me as a subordinate but a young man trying to get advice from a matured one hehehe. It’s almost 1am, yet I am not at all sleepy, probably because I am not really looking forward for tomorrow, because there is another Open House to attend too…. And I am running out of herbal tea to wash out the xtra fat.. anyhow I need to get some sleep now.. hugs to all!!

The Huggable Ben

The Last Bahulu...

A close friend of mine bought me a bag of freshly bake Kuih Bahulu dari pantai timur… the special thing about this cake is that it is traditionally bake using “sabut kelapa”. The taste is totally different, although I like any variety of Bahulu but I like the tradisional one much more..i don’t really know why? I was a bit greedy cause I did not share it with anyone I enjoyed it all by myself… hehehe… I am so bad huh? But yesterday i finish up the last one…are you wondering why am I talking about Bahulu all of a sudden? i am myself am puzzle, hehehehehe….. Just I am feeling a bit melancholic at the moment, so the Bahulu is my “honey and clover”….

My Boss said something very nice today, I never heard he say it to anyone and he did not say it direct to me, but to a friend while I was buzy preparing for the “Open House” for my Bahagian today… He say “ Ben ni…dier ler yang selalu kene marah…dier gak yang paling kuat kerja..” my colleague who heard this immediately told me what he say.. and for a while I was blushing, but that the problem, he could be totally nice at one time and the other way around at the next. But for that one comment I felt happy and energized, it not really easy to get such an honest praise like that. Especial from my boss, how do I know he was honest? Cause he did not say it in front of me, but quietly to himself that was overheard by my colleague. It was a nice “pat on the back” for me indeed.

My work are getting back lag again… although I am trying very hard to finish everything it keep on piling up around me…. A nice holiday back home would be very nice indeed.. hehehe

The Huggable Ben

Ask Me About My Weight…!!

I posted a shout out saying maintain cuteness even after weight loss… hoping someone would ask about my diet… hehehe thanks Firdaus.. hehehe…

Before Ramadan month, my weight is about 125 kg, I remember it distinctively, because the person who was reading the scale was so shock that I weight that much…

And during raya I can bet that I would at least gain again 2 kg… there was just to much food I guess . To my surprise I current weight is 120.7, I know this because a friend who is like promoting a product brought his weight scale, a digital one.. so if I weight before was like 125kg and during the three day of raya I gain at least 2 kg, with my current weight.. I Lost the total amount of……7 KILO’s Muiahahahahha ….wow.. really cant believe it myself.. but it just show that the diet work…

I don’t really plan to slim down, just wanted to reduce my weight back to 100kg, a bit lighter so I could be more vigorous …. Hehehe….. what? what are you thinking? Hehehe..

Another surprise, my English lecturer call me just now, at first we just chatted about old time and how things are for both of us, the next part of the conversation is about, he found out about my blog, he was reading it before he called and commented that I still need more practice and improvement. Even after study I still get commented so lar…. But yeah.. is always been the case, I can speak fluently but writing wise I am the worst…
But thank you sir for your advise… (hormat Cikgu..!)

The past few day was fun… I cant believe I ever felt that happy before…hehehe….

The Very Happy Huggable Ben

Post Raya Blog…..

Well I had a nice Raya holiday this year, although it is an extended one, but it was nice…. The three musketeers went to almost everyone house, I think that if I lost about 1 or 2 kg during the Ramadan month I gain it during the two days of raya. Hehehe… I am so bad with food…..

Controversy ? Recently I am all about controversy.. But well that life I guess.

I kind of am getting the knack of being like who I am now, A Coyote…. Hehehehe…

Back to work tomorrow.. isk..rasa cam cuti tak cukup jer….tak nak buat cam ner… hehehe…

Went to a very scenic place during raya..which was a place where a feature movie Called “SEPI” hehehe..Yeah I like to take the Adam role… but it was taken by someone else already… hehehe…
So to my colleague see you guys tomorrow... (I am waiting for my Kuih raya!) and my friends Happy holiday!! Hugs!!

The Huggable Ben