Kejayaan Saiz Medium….hehehe

Tajuk cam gempak jer …hehehe… tapi hari ni memang dapat kejayaan nak cakap besaq tak jugak, nak cakap kecil kira besar jugak jadi ambik ler tengah2 saiz medium jer..

Kejayaan nak lepaskan diri dari kesilapan ketagihan mengunakan kad kredit sebenarnya. Hehehehe….. yeap guna kad tue memang mudah dan mengasyikkan, swipe…swipe..swipe nak penuh dah guna kad tue…

Biler bend ah tersedar ketagihan mengunakan kad ni, ben buat ler penstrukturan semula rancang kewangan diri, peh…lagi satu nama gempak jer… hehehe…Tapi setelah beberapa bulan berusaha..akhirnyer clear dah kad kredit ben…..!!!! YES!!!! Dan walaupun rasa sedih gak tgk kad-kad tue kene gunting tapi pas jer kene gunting kad tue rasa cam “FREEDOM!” hehehehehe

Hari ni rasa deman skit, semalam basah lenjung pastu, pakai kain sarung jerk at opis ngan jaket, rasa seksi jer hehehe…. Kene marah ngan ayah(KG) sebab basah kuyup masuk opis, pinjam kain ayah ler.. hehehe…nasib baik kipas dan aircond yang kuat kat surau opis menjadikan baju kite kering pas lunch.. jadi meeting petang semalam tak ler pakai kain.. hehehehe…

Penat ler… sanggat penat bebaru ni, keje makin banyak plak….Kepada kekawan yang dapat Aras 4 PTK bebaru ni taniah yer.. pasti ajar kita plak yer nak pass PTK..!! hehehe

Ok lama tak memblogging kan, Gud luck kekawan yang ada Debate Tournament!! Hehe

The Huggbale Ben

Kisah saya….

Lama menyepi? Yap memang lama menyepi, kesibukkan makin menjarakkan diri ben untuk memblogging..

Bebaru ni banyak berlaku, trip2 gi tempat2 yang menarik dan macam-macam lagi, tapi korang plak asyik dok tanya pasal Valentine plak…. Hehehe….

As I say before, dan mereka yang terima sms saya, On Valentine day saya buat demontrasi, Valentine is time to spread love to the Waring world!!! Peh….!!!! Cam activist keaman plak…. Hehehehe

Ada sorang member ni yang ajar satu statement baru, dalam relationship siapa “GULA” dalam definisi “Sweetness” Klu dua2 pasangan duduk 4 meter antara satu sama lain, orang akan melihat dan menegur sapa dulu? Maka pasangan tue gula, hehehe jadi pasangan tue tak payah nak jeles2 sebab dier gula dalam relationship tue…hehehe….. So dalam ben nyer “circle of friends” ramai antara mereka sebenarnya gula. Ben lak rasa cam asam biler bersama dorang.

Tapi dua tiga hari ni ben realize ben sebenarnyer gula-gula asam jawa, rasa dier masam-masam manis, tak ler standing gula-gula chupa-chup tapi ada gak yang gemar…. Peh penuh makna dow…

Thanks again… nasihat tue ben tak lupa nyer..you made me feel that I have move on to whut ever situation I am in.

I made a weird decision today, which I think is connected with what happen these few day, I just gave someone a call to see how is that someone doing, when that someone say I am fine, I felt great and I say “ well that all I wanted to know, take care ya!” a short yet very meaningful conversation. That conversation, tell me that I was ok.

Ok apa lagi, something amazing happen, so amazing that it would sound like a fairy tale…

The Huggable Ben

This is me…..

This is me..this is who I am…..what I wanted to say is, in the past I change myself, so that I could complement other. But all that sacrifice doesn’t mean shit, so I come to a conclusion, why should I change for anyone? Why? Because in the end it would just backfire and hurt rite in the heart, where all the emotion is store….

That is why something people say that I am shallow when in come into the matter of the heart. With all the relationship I enter I am hurt in almost each one. I still believe in love but at the moment my heart can’t really handle it. If I could show you how my heart looks like, you might see something like it came out of a war.

As a healing, I gather a lot of friends, because next best family friends are the next best thing. Because they are there in you low and up. I am a shoulder to cry on because I know when I need it, they be there to give their shoulder for me to cry on.

I can’t change for anyone, because this is me, you accept me as I am. If you can’t.. I did not force you too.. Because this is me, myself, it took a lot of effort to strengthen my heart to face this harsh world. And I am still not fully healed to face another emotional attack.

Accept me for what I am, and I promise you, you will earn a royal and caring friend…


The Huggable Ben

I Prove It.....

Yesterday I was able to prove to myself that I have move on, about one issue. Best sangat I finaly got to put an fullstop on it. Tapi secara tetiba biler issue tue bagi pendapat ben ler dah selesai, my heart suddenly hurt (not from the medical point of view!)

Jadi I took the nite life of kl, Gi explore the nite life of the city…Peh..tak sanggat jumpa ramai plak ex classmate, siot jer korang kan…. Harus baik gilos tahap naga kat kampus tapi kat luar aiyoo…..

The friends, the loud music, the free style dancing, even the poco-poco… which is hilarious….. Really put a healing balm on my heart.. hehehehe…

Although rasa cam light headed trus balik jam 5 pagi tadi, it really takes my mind off the issue at hand. Skrang the rest of my friend is still sleeping.

Jumpa ngan member2 lama semalam betul melancholic sanggat.. dah dewasa kite skrang kan… hehehe….classmate sekolah menengah mana korang semua biler nak buat gathering. Teman Kolej…. Dah banyak jumpa semalam biler planning buat gath plak?

Hehehe ……I felt better this morning… although rasa cam burn out skit.. nothing medication can handle.. ehehe

Ben

Nervous (Gemuruh)….tapi napa erk?

Sooryy the 1st blog entry for 2009 nine is upload only after 16 days hehehe.... to much stuff to say but to little time...

Dalam pengalaman ben, perasan Nervous ni cuma berlaku biler kte akan jumpa ngan seseorang atau sesuatau keadaan yang akan mengubah kehidupan kita atau pandangan ben terhadap sesuatu, Paling latest ialah The Bowling tournament biler ben dapat lihat dan kesan perubahan sikap seorang kawan yang selama ini cuba untuk sembunyi perasaan beliau dengan berlagak agak sombong. But It’s nice to say that the real person came out eventually.

Tapi Gemuruh yang ben rasa dari semalam agak lain skit. Sebab Gemuruh ni mmg sanggat kenal, tapi tak mungkin sebab ben dah buat perasaan ni jauh2, Isk tak nak ler jadi cam kawan yang tetiba jer menghilangkan diri beliau tanpa sebab. Mungkin it’s a start of a brand new friendship or business venture, tapi still ben rasa hairan dengan gemuruh yang ben rasa skrang. Dalam kepala, betul ker ni? Boleh caya ker ni? Hehehehe…. Lucu biler difikirkan, cam budak2 plak… apa2pun ben harap perbincangan kali ni lebih menarik dari yang lepas, tahun ni cam belum ada pekara yang menarik berlaku, mungkin hari ni? Sapa tahu kan? aii masih gemuruh ler… nak gi minum ler… hehehe… Have a nice weekend everyone!!

The Huggable ben

December Is here....

December is here…and I still don’t get it why I have a strange felling this morning, plus a strange dream last nite…

But anyway, I felt like something I need to do something about what I want to do… I felt like doing something more then just what am doing now. But the dream suggest that I should wait… hehehe.. I guess my subconscious mind is rite in a way.

I was asked, why did I run off escaping from the city any chance I have, the first thing people would think is that I am having a crush on someone to be constantly be doing that. No not really. I don’t have a secret lover. Just me…

I was trying to understand, what happen recently, what could I have done wrong….then I realize.. I did nothing, I was the same person I was before, and if that does not complement together with it than I better of with my own way I guess….

If you are confused….you on the rite track, since this is not a full blog, just snippet from my thought, and my mind is as confuse as you see at this moment …

Hug muah!!

The Huggable Ben

A shocking statement……..

It started as a regular day today, nothing much plan, and well nothing much to look forward too… but a surprising statement came out from the most unexpected person.. KG admin was looking for the office daily news, but when KG admin couldn’t find it, KG admin came to my desk asking for it, since I was using my head phone… I couldn’t hear KG admin at first but then KG admin grab the head phone and say “ben sayang mana paper hari ni?” I was like …..huh??? what did you say??? Hehehehe…… although KG admin was just joking at that time, but nevertheless is almost like getting something impossible, like a movie actor miraculously knowing who you are.. Although KG admin is not really someone as famous as a artist, just that is one of the KG one of the always want but could never have.. so similar lar kira….

Hehehe a very short one.. but I need to let it out to stop the blushing…. Hehehe

The Huggable Ben