MCO Day 22 – Marie Kondo-ing My Room

Yup Its day 22 of MCO, and just finish join the live streaming of Maundy Thursday Mass From Sacred Heart Cathedral. It is a bit sad that this year there no new Candidate for Confirmation and First Holy Communion. Most Sad would be to see that those whom are really into the holy week every year and this time we cant really do the mass cause of the MCO and to fight of the Covid 19 Attack in our country. Sadly we are not the only one facing this. Catholic all around the world are facing this. For the first time in my generation I guess that the churches are close for the holy week.

So what have I been doing? Well a friend come to visit and help bought some groceries and had a nice chat with an actual human being, although we do keep our distance but hey a hug before a friend leaving us is important, and since we were really staying in our home not meeting anyone so think we are safe hopefully. I am so grateful that a friend come over checking up on me help buy some stuff cause the shop nearby are running low in supply also and that just it although food delivery are allowed many provider don’t because the low demand of the product is just not enough to cover their cost, hence although we understand why we kind of think that well we don’t really think about what we buy before we can’t buy them anymore. For example bread we used to buy once a week and sometime we don’t even finish them and they go bad. Now we can’t even buy it and when we do I for one only buy one loaf because that all I need for the week, and that how long it normally last. Why buy more? If you have a big family and need to provide for them I can understand. But those who panic buy them? Why? Its not going to last that long. That why food production is consider a front liner because they provide food supply for us.

We are going of topic hahaha… I was going to tell you about what have I been doing, for the last 3 days I haven’t left my house at all because my groceries run are all done when my friend come over. So stuck in the house we start re-watching youtube vedio on marrie kondo method. Got inspire and well that was what I am doing. Channeling what bring joy and what not and hence what not get donated and what bring joy are repack and ready to ship. Wait~~~ shipped to where?? Soon enough you will tell you. For now let just say we have 5 box ready… we just need the tape them up and bind with plastic.

Well that from me on the MCO 22^nd day

Huggable and hermetic Ben

  

Day 18 of the MCO….Shadow people..

Well last night had to sleep with the lights on cause the shadow people are back weird things is that I had prep everything that might cause them to now come back to the house but when I move to the master bedroom. I move the location of the particular stuff to set up the barrier up.. I forgot that the movement are not really where it supposed to be. So I had to move and add some of the stuff so the circle is complete. Hopefully they won’t come back. Although they don’t really do anything that really hazardous  just that the shocked from the glimpse of them are really annoying and it put thought in your mind that you really don’t want to be thinking in the middle of the nite trust me with that hahahaha..

So the order from Shoppe arrived today. I tot it was a clear plastic but it was actually packet with an address pouches hahahaha.. Well I don’t really mind since I have used for it too to compartmentalize the stuff I am packing for the whole move.

Haven’t had any job for the last few months since I had move from the big city.. owh you know what? I think I need to change the name of this blog from the big city to just the big town since I am no longer in the Big City just a small town in the middle of the peninsular living an hermitic life hehehehe….

I saw a quote today about how when you get older and wiser you then to have a silent private relationship who knew will know who does not then you need to be relevant to know who I have a relationship with if you not relevant MYOB ~~~ hehehe…long distant relationship? Yeah cant be help but I am so happy that I can have a relationship after so many heartbreak along the way… almost believe that I don’t deserve to have a meaningful relationship. I should just be a slut…and you know enjoy the flesh than understanding the meaning of love…ala giteww hahaha…

I need to prepare the stuff for the job I have taken, I hope there gonna be a few hundred RM from ths which can really help me in my traveling move after the whole MCO ended….

Anyway I just heard a good farewell greeting…

“I See You When The World Healed~~” so meaning for us I think

The Hug-gable Hermetic Ben

MCO and The Big Move ~~

Day 15 of MCO, as always it almost been 3 months since my last entry...I can’t believe that was held up with so many stupid things that normally won’t even effect my wellbeing but because of its small yet significant issue I had me going like down ward spiral ever since.

Being the hermitic life that I am not, only allow myself a few excursions with friends here and there, much to my amazement that I have been trying to maintain something that was just stupid for me to do in the first place. A friend tries to warm me but because I haven’t seen the truth in that particular way yet at the time, I honestly didn’t see it. At last something happen and truth become clearer than ever before, hence stern action was taken no matter what. It did cause some confusion at 1^st but then again what new it the life of chubby Ben.

It been 13 years and more since I started working and a lot of stuff happen during these time that change my life considerately. But I think in my own word. I had enough of this and it’s time for me to get back home or near to home. And I actually started the event in motion unintentionally. I keep my prayer short and simple asking for help in trying to get my life back in order, and actually in some way it does during the MCO. Enough time for myself to do some spring cleaning and further de-clutter and actually reducing what I really need until I got the news that change is coming in another few week and hence I just realize that how much thing I got to reduce in order the journey back for the coming changes soon.

Come to think of it I am getting a bit sad that I have to be on this journey and leave my friends behind, some of them have been with me for such a long time that I really think that I be very sad to no hang out with them again soon. But change is the only constant hence I make new friends soon but my old friend will forever with me in my heart and on social media. Hope they come visit me soon and maybe we could have a very nice trip to where I am going.

Everything seem to fall into place at the moment, setting me on a path that would make me grow even more I hope. Yeah it’s a bit far but like that the best I can do for now… hopefully soon I could do and much nearer place to my hometown. The fiscal unbalance situations now also seem to have a great solutions hence I hope by the time all this isolation movement has come to an end and we are able to fight off the virus attacking human kind we would be on a better situations and moving toward to be a better person…wuuuuu~~~ cant wait.. Thank you big guy up there~~~~~

Huggable Hermitic Ben……

Although Its December~~

Although its December where the ends of the years comes near but I guess for me it the start of things, my first month of trial run and stuff in the new office has come to an end and now it time to show what I can really do but hey. problem with that is well I am not sure if I am up for the challenge or not.

The Sly fox’s is almost everywhere I am not sure why but I guess the experience of the old offices and some tragedies from last two years has a bit harden my heart and view to see everyone as a sly fox’s. protect yours borrow and make sure the sly fox never gets in and see how you really are.

But the last two nights at the house was very cold indeed not really sure if that a good thing or not it is the season of rain and flood here so its water season so it may be that but the morning was very cold and well hehehehe…

Reminiscing for the last few's days on the pilgrim journey we had last year it was a beautiful journey indeed, and well its was special because it was with the parents and well I was the furthers journey I ever had. Will do it again someday… when? Well that is for the big guy up there to decide hehehe..

I was hoping that today I could be going to the night market but it seem that the rain might had cause the market to be closed so its either just pau or meggi today which is ok in so many way.

My journal is making it way I hope I can complete it though I havce waste a lot of book journal these past few years only able to commit like a few days to a week before it because something hard under the Bed hahahaha….

I hope I can revisit the holy again, just to feel the awesome presence there… soon hopefully

The huggable Ben

The move complete~~I guess

I guess this year is a two thing happening at one time, for example was wound healing twice this year, the boil and then now the exsospipe bunt on my leg. Trying to figure out my living arrangement and now for the 3^rd time this year I move again. This year end whist my move to Temerloh Pahang. I am so stress because there were so much to do, packing repacking move removing. But if I were to be station here for now on we, I guess all the basic need are fulfilled. Except for the laundry arrangements. There is no nearby laundry that I can do myself, there is a laundry mat down the office I guess I can send it there but for now, I bring my cloths back to KL to be wash at the house. The KL home based.

Change is the only constant, that is what I always say to myself and to those whom had a drastic change in their life. Yes, change is the only constant but I didn’t say that it did not come with so much hardship to overcome and such. But I least I know whom I doing this for, for my faith for my family and for my future. Am I going to be here for that long? I am not sure of that but yeah it could mean I need to be here a while longer than I had expected but that come with the change I guess. The harder it get the more I learn about what to do and what to expect, don’t expect to much and you never go wrong cause you be more appreciated to the things that you have now. That a major thing that I need to rethink and reassess on what I am doing right now. Hopefully new place new people all the old stressed are going to stay in the past.   

There is nothing else top look forward to this year but the long holiday going to spend it with friends and family especially with my heart an soul RRDU~~~ wuuuuuu~~~~ huggy to all ~~

The Huggable Ben

Almost a week here..

The hermetic journey begin...

That make it sound so dramatic doesn't it? but i hope it was that dramatic. The new office environment are much much more conducive in this initial introduction, File room is a bit tad small though, i mean on the second day I got stuck twice between the cabinet whilst trying to find some file. So system here is simple too, file number are easy to understand, the court system is also something i can understand. No to much urgent file that need to be done as soon as possible like the last place so yeah that a good thing too.

There is a lot of night market here, only Wednesday night the only slot in the whole of the week that there is no night market nearby. That great since i can easily buy food for dinner there. The new housemate seem find too, small chat and everyone just mind their own matter which is nice since i dont really think i have much passion this early of the state of the move. But eyy its always nice to meet and make new friends.

Just like Qud.. a few i just meet, very nice guy, very cheerful and friendly, got to kidnap him to go to the night market a few time, but unable to buy him dinner yet cause the wife seem to love cooking for him so he has to get home quickly hehehe.. its nice to have a friend though, can laugh and stuff hehehe..

Since its still early of the move not much task needed to do hence more time to return to my passion of writing blog. hehehe.. i should try to see if there are new stuff to do here like maybe fishing and stuff.. hehehe....

The Huggable Ben

The Yellow Car Phenomenon

I always wanted to do this particular topic for a while now because the thing happen to me recently.

The Phenomenon was a positive one " When was the last time you saw a yellow car? You might see a yellow car once a day or so . Now, for the next week check out how many yellow cars you see. Since I have alerted you to yellow cars, you will probably observe many more of them than you had previously noticed. Is it because so many more yellow cars just hit the streets? Of course not. You just focused your mind on yellow cars, and like a magnet, you see more of them."  this phenomenon was supposed to explain how "The more you focus on the 'positive side of life,' the more you will attract the same things. The things we focus on create a magnet for our lives." see it was a positive kind of phenomenon or how i would like to called it as a theory 

why? because the same way as you say focus on the positive it will attract positive things, focus on the negative it will attract negative things also. The thing that happen to me was those people was hoping to see my negative side so they can tattle tale on me. They forgotten that i have notice this shit happening for such a long time. i had warn the person in charge about this and ask that i would be place in a location where that kind of issue might arise. The person in charge say it was ok, the person in charge understand and will take noted but still place me where it might arise and issue. Less then two week there is an issue and after that a simple action of posting a picture in socmed cause an uproar stating i live an extravagance lifestyle, sadly the constant tattle tale to the person in charge even without evidence take a toll on the person finally just accepted that i might be doing these but leave any trail of evidence ... well i told that person about this theory... and say i told you about this long before this is even an issue, i agree to your instruction because you told me that you wont be effected by all the yellow car push in front of you.. and now... you just accept that i was a yellow car... a negativity yellow car..... but as a blessing... i was relocated... the reason was not because of the yellow car issue but those focusing in see the negative me.. was so scared that i leave without anything for them to curse at... make another yellow car statement and the all were in an uproar.. making so many statement yet since i am going out... whut the F people you just cause trouble for everyone. then i realize it was so that everyone can blame me for the trouble that happen... but..well you all dead to me anyway hahahahaha.... see this is the dark side you wanted to see.....

The Huggable Ben