Décor Weekend……

I spend the whole weekend redecorating my room plus cleaning old stuff. Why? Well the other day while waiting for my favorite show which is midsummer murder on hallmark channel, I was watching Oprah… they were talking about “it’s just to much!” is about how me tend to keep stuff and our home become to messy (yes… it “was” messy…!).

In the program they introduce a few technique on how to purge of unusable stuff or unneeded stuff because let face it… if you don’t need and use them…why in the hell would you keep them?... By the end of the two day which I sleep outside my room because the cleaning and redesigning was still undone. I manage to compile six garbage bag of stuff to throw away. I surprise even myself..

I finally realize that for the past year I being collection junk so severely that my room usable space was like only 20%. After cleaning and redecorating I got back the 60%. More space, more cleanly, more smile… hheheehehehe…

I was very tiring indeed to move all the stuff anf furniture around but I finally finish it… and proud of myself I guess ..Hebat juga ben ni kam…!!!

The huggable ben

Hari yang malas…..

It was strange to actually to even have this Phase late in the year… normally the laziness syndrome happen early in a year rite after holiday, Laziness syndrome is similar to burn out. But probably it was the new system at work, which present a problem, because I was the only one who have clearance to use, but it was critical task so, if I am not there no one else can do it.(or none would cover for me) which also mean this might effect my holiday plan this year end….

Plus I think I just need a single day break which I only spend with myself. That a good cure for burn out I guess, with the amount of stuff happening that cause you to burn out, just having time just for yourself help a lot…

I took a leave today, because I couldn’t wake up, burn out symptom #1 your mind is telling you body to do something but the body just wont do it. Although I took an off day, and I have the time to actually go anywhere I like. I cant bring myself to walk out the house, just wanted to rest.. and rest…. Before you knew it…. It already 4 pm….the whole day I was just sitting in front of the tv…

Strangely at the moment I felling perk up, I wanted to go out… and smile and I think I go grocery shopping. Hehehe…. I wish there a swimming pool near here…. Other than shopping swimming calm me down hehehe…..

Walau apa pun , hari ini memang hari yang malas buat saya…. Hehehehe…..

Hugs

The Huggable Ben

I Have move on….

I had to face a dilemma recently.. I was stuck in the middle of a controversy which took a twisted route. I now realize people may advise to you that you need to move on but the truth is they could never accept that you did, because it means that I don’t need them anymore….

I tried my best to be diplomatic…I try ever single way that I know of in trying to be fair to everyone. But I was not the newcomer…so why must I leave? Why must I get emo about it… I don’t need too…. So why must I look and act like how you like me to act which is miserable, why cant you accept that I am happy? And I have move on….to the next level… and if you could not accept it.. that your problem not mine… stop trying to connect me with it… face your one demon and don’t try to put the blame on me just because I finally happy with myself now and not miserable like you think I should be. Please knock of the drama… I really don’t need it….and so does everyone else…

But being the cheerful person I am, I can totally put this dilemma aside and move on to a more cheerful topic… this is the 13th day of fasting which I am able to complete, I miss a few days hehehe… and I lost 1 kg of my weight…. See….hehehe my diet working… hehehe…hey plus I got an invite for a sabatikal trip to Cairo… how kwel is that huh? Hehehe…. But it is still in process so no comformation yet… ( but I really hope it was.. hehe…!)

The Huggable Ben

ACCCHOOOO………!!!!

After a few days of feeling feverish, It finally came, my 1st cold fever…. I been sneezing since last nite… took med which cause you to get sleepy and woke up late this morning….. although I manage to catch the early bus then the problem arise when I arrive at the office I still cant stop sneezing.. I think I am taking off early today so I can go to the clinic…

Cold fever for me are much more uncomfortable than the last fever.. because of the running nose and the sneezing… the last fever I just felt warm and tired.. isk… siot jer…

But at least I know what am gonna have for breaking fast later….. a warm Nescafe tarik….. plus I wanted to try the new KFC product.. can’t remember it’s name, but all my friends say it was nice… but definitely I need my Nescafe first…..but at least it a bit easier fasting with a fever.. you don’t seem to have a mood to eat anything…… although my tummy is grumbling like there is a soccer tournament in there,,, hehehehe

Hugs to all….. and selamat berbuka…….

The Huggable Ben

I think I did something wrong……..

Aiyo….harus sanggat kan, a glance at the title so much controversy came to you mind huh? But well is nothing much I guess just that I think I hurt someone feeling in somehow or rather…cause that someone is kindda felt like trying to avoid me…well nothing I can do I guess, I cant fix something I don’t even know what is wrong with it rite? Hopefully that someone would just tell me what wrong.

This morning I cant wake up at all, I was really late to the office today but well I had too…to much work to be done, and I got a new scanner…for this GEO-EDMS thingies.

I was awake earlier, but then my body just don’t want to move. Last nite it was raining… I my body was saying to me, I want a warm hug… but well…what to do…..not everything that we want , we can have rite?? So I roll myself with my comforter and emerged as a “Vutot!” hehehee…. I look like a giant Vutot indeed… hehehe.. what is vutot? “ulat sagu”? mainly it look like a gaint fat caterpillar…hehehehe. To recreate to warm of being hug?

And suddenly at this moment I realize that I am having a fever…..owh….. my tummy felt weird.. … I think I am going back early today…..

The Feverish Huggable Ben

My Redang Holiday Trip……..best siot!!!

Well this blog is 2 days late, because the past few days I was recuperating from my holiday which was suppose to be a time to recuperate from my work, how ironic is that huh?

How was my trip? Well I was great , because it was with my friends, the boat ride was a bit tiring but nevertheless fun. First day snorkeling did not turn out so well, a few of my friends was swept away by the strong wave so had to be a life guard for a while, problem was, it been a while since I did so serious swimming so, my arm felt like jelly after rescuing some of my friends and a few student at teluk kelong bay. Hehehe….

The food was to my taste is average but the room was nice and comfortable. Had a chance to do some scuba-diving which was fun but because of my buddy had drain all the air in his tank we had to cut the dive short, but again nevertheless it was a nice and good dive indeed. The night life was fun, but the best part was midnight dip in the sea, added bonus it was a full moon, so the water was beautiful…totally magical, if I ever choose to live as a witch, I totally choose Redang.. hehehehe….

The trip back was a bit tiring, much controversy happen that day, which include me in it, hehehehe strange rite for someone who is always trying to avoid controversy I was in the middle of it that day.

I have to agree it was the best holiday and it was my first after two years as a working adult…hehehe…. Hugs to all!!! Muah2!!

The Huggable Ben

P/s there were more happening during the holiday, but cant really say it in the blog, hehehehe trade secret hehehe….

Life as an administrator….

I came back to a table with 5 level of “fail tindakan” amongst these file was a few overdue letter which was marked urgent but was somehow deem to the rest of my staff as “cant wait till Ben get back” item. I was really furious when I came in today, but I manage to keep myself cool because well I had a very good day yesterday and a very very good week last week, the happiness just overshadow the anger I had, because as I realize before, non of my colleague are efficient at all.

I can do their daily task if they were on a Sick day or going on a holiday. But they cant5 do mine for these reason;

“It been such a long time since I last did this task, I cant remember how?”
“I have my own work to do, I don’t have time to take over other’s”
“I wont to administrator task”
“If I do his task, then other people will think that I am “Gila Kuasa!” person”

If I use any of these reason to not do their task on their off day or when their attending courses, I wonder how it will be like? Somehow after today I felt that, if I were to take a sabbatical leave this Dept will go down the drain. Because none of them are can take over, and cover my section. And if my section was not that important, the hell would I care, the problem is, my unit is the vein off the dept, everything that goes out and in (document wise) from this dept must go through me. So what happen when I was attending a course last week? – My unit was put on a halt; nothing was done until I came in today.

But one good thing about this situation is that I was able to see how good I was as an administrator. In only 8 hours of non-stop and uninterrupted work, I was able to complete 80% of the last week task and today task, I was unable to complete the 20% because lack of recourses.

In Other Word…I am amazing…! Angle with halo and wings yet to come!!

The Huggable Ben