I am drawing the line…..

There is a limit, there is always a limit for everything, for the good thing and also for the bad….I cant really do anything more, since you had tap out everything out of me… it is here where I draw the line… and say.. this is my limit… no matter how much I wanted to do more, I could not do more than what I had done already… I am waiting for your response, if I did the rite thing you would respond by respecting my decision and appreciate what have I done for you..huhuhu…tapi dalam hati ada gak perasaan would really like to help more…but biler ko nak blajar handle benda ni sendiri….huhuhuhu… huhuhu……..

Rhythm keje minggu ni agak tergangu skit walaupun able to handle everything and today for at least 2 hours my work station was clear.. then it was again fill with task to done before the end of the week…. Which actually is the easy part.. but my mind was not 100% here at the moment…..my mind is far away…waiting…..for something…..because if it did not come then I have the second option ready to go….but until anything can be confirmed I am stuck in the middle….hovering in silent……erm…motivasi takde siot….

A few things to do during lent…..i have list already done let see if I could actually do everything…but for these past few days cam ok lak huhuhu……I would like to be a monk for a couple of week just to get my head together again…huhuu….

Another day and life of…

The Huggable Ben

Archeology of my room and Bee nite..

Yesterday I wrote about house cleaning.. after I posted the blog I went and read all my past blog, and so lar very the eye opener…. I can see that I gradually growing into the person that I am today… although… the stuff that I say I found while cleaning… I bought it in 2008..yes… three years ago… It was there literally untouched…..wow….. it like the pyramid… left to be rediscover after so long… ahahahhaa archeology of my own room hahahahaha……

Bee….nite… semalam pass mandi jer.. tetiba empat ekor lebah masuk bilik dari tingkap…huhuhu…sekor hampir sengat leher kte plak tue… nasib baik ler dah pernah tgk discovery channel pasal lebah ni… guna spray nyamuk untuk peningkan dier pastu penyek ngan majalah huhuhu… tapi malang nyer pepagi tadi muncul lak kekawan dier…..kali ni mmg kene sengat dah dua ekor.. siot jer.. nasib baik ler lebah madu jer bukan tebuan.. ambik antihistamine jap kat klinik tadi.. bengkak pun dah reda dah.. huhuhu….siot jer…am I that sweet that bee envy me? Hahahahaha… I wish…!! Hehehe

Body not feeling very well though today….but can’t slack off must go gym today… huhuhu…just wat yang lite2 jer… over 2 wat pe tul tak? Hehehe…..

So let’s go to the gym…!!!! Huhuhuhu….

The Huggable Ben

March spring cleaning...

Dah seminggu dan novel ni kte beli baru habis beberapa chapter….huhuhu so lar….kte ni lain skit biler baca novel2 ni, selalu day dream…masalahnyer biler dah day dream boleh hanyut trus tertidur.. jadi sepatutnyer membaca tetiba tertidur huhuhu….best gak ler novel “Brida” Penulis Paulo Coelho..huhu… pasal magic2 gak arr…. Hehehe… so selalu membayangkan diri sebagai protagonist dalam ceta ni… best pe..dunia fantasi lebih indah dan my escape form the harsh reality of life…..once you go magic you never go back…. Hahahahaha…..atau ikut min pau2 gebu…once mak esah always mak esah.. hehehe

Minggu ni penuh ngan aktiviti mari Deco2…Salah satu “BIG PLAN OF 2011” hehehe… realize… banyak tul benda kene clear…tapi penambahan haruz perancangan balik sebab macam tak muat jer huhuhu…secara tetiba…luar rumah pun kene cat baru peh… cam tau2 jer deco2 planning siot.. ahahahha…. Tak tahu lak aktiviti cat baru block tue sebenarnya gotong royong… balik2 jer satu block dah kene cat baru..yang tak leh tahan tue color soft pink klu tak silap….ahahahaha…siot jer..

A bit lonely juga sebab…while deco2ing..ternampak few memorabilia yang remind me of thing that has pass…..nice memory from last year and a few years back….found few item that was miss place…and forgotten..my fault actually.. hehehe….but dah jumpa balik kira ok ler boleh teruskan… tapi biler dah jumpa benda2 yang beli time2 tue… trus gi check klu ada barangan baru wakakaka.. online shopping lak siot jer.. abis ler fulus bulan ni hahahaha…..

Isk..... hati tak sabar lak nak tgu keputusan hujung bulan ni.. huhuhu…. Kecut pewot ar… huhuhu ok nak gi wat black coffee lar… baik untuk lawan ngantuk petang2 ni huhuhu….

The huggable ben…..

Blogging time…

I use to lover writing stuff… I used to love putting spoken word into written word. What I strive for is to express myself to the world, a few years back wait….errmm.. I think it was almost Ten year’s ago someone introduce me to blogging…a online way to keep a journal, which I also keep. But a blog is something we share… people then can read it…and reply or something, which at first I kindda like the attention, but again your blog could be the source where people manipulate what you are writing into something that might sabotage you.

Speaking your thought out loud seem to also have pros and cons… I remember last year experience, where my words were twisted and use against me because to the people that matter, my world seem to revolve around them. This is what writer calls a motivation killer. Everything that you write seems too sensitive for other because they would get hurt just by reading it. Although what you were referring to was a complete different thing, something which is not even minutely related to the people that matter. But as the old Malay saying “siapa makan cili, dia rasa pedas” so like whut ever..

So I kinda slowed down in the blogging world, only to do entry when there are something worth sharing to the world, then recently I ask myself, why stop something that I love to do because it might hurt other for the reason that they themselves think I was referring to them?.. Be proud that someone actually thought you were talking about them that people actually read your stuff… so much fun if we see it that way rite?

Anyway…. On this calm march Sunday and on my way to my Sunday Mass hope I could make it in time before it start.. I continue my blogging life…but how long? Let just see first .. if no one kill themselves about what I say here, then I be blogging as much as I can hehehehe…

The Huggable Ben

Cuba Test Try...

Trying some new features on my blogs... huhuhu march 4 test cuba try

1st of march!!!

Whut??? ..its already march? Hehehe.. so lar very the tak terasa masa yang berlalu terlalu laju… huhuhu… Dua bulan tak update blog siot.. ni semua gara gara ketiadaan masa tahap gaban naga emas yang semakin serius…..

Ikut hati dah tak leh tahan ni kene slow down dah.. tapi nak wat cam ner… kang bising lak biler tugas- tugas tue tak selesai….

Homesick skit bebaru ni selepas nephew baru huhuhu…. Nak tgk Elden lar… huhuhu….

Haaaa!! Ayah kte kat klang dah doctor suh makan ubat..kan.. ben dah cakap… tak caya… huhuhu tapi dah makan ubat tue ok ler moga sihat selalu…naseb baek ayah klu tak lama dah kene sekeh ni..huhuhuhu

BIG PLAN OF 2011-this year I have 3 big plan…. Can’t actually reveal it here…since kang malu lak klu tak tercapai… Hahahahaha…….but big plan num one had already attained one item…huhuhu still browsing the rest and planning the execution …

Huhuhuu…pehal lak ler lutut aq hari ni… planning nak gi gym trus tak jadik siot huhuhuhu…
Isk hari ni tak dapat perform sepenuhnyar kerana lutut yang injured ni… huhuhu kene exercise gak tak leh bagi rehat walaupun injured, walaupun main upper body jer gym hari ni huhuhu… seedy lar cardio tak leh wat huhuhuhu……

Baru Nampak pasal network blog ni… nak cuba ler huhuhu… pe2 pun for all marchian….. Its March!!! Hehehe……

Huggable Ben

Mr Krab,Kamen Rider Heart and My New Year Resolution

About Mr Krab…I was window shopping with my young nephew at 1 Borneo, we were walking down the stair when he ask me..”angkol why do you walk sideway when you going down the stair…” I tot what an innocent question..so I answer “angkol is a big guy.. walking side way like this help to stabilize myself on the stair…” Then again my young nephew answer “ But then angkol you walk like a krab lar..” aiyo…….wakakakakaka… so to Pau, amir si mata hijau and Smuffx wan…..it’s official…Ben the Crab…wakakakakakakaka….

About Kamen Rider Heart…I was back at my home town…so mmg banyak ceta there lar…another nephew was talking about Kamen Rider, this is during their time, During my time it was Power Ranger,Mask Rider(suria perkasa baja hitam) Tentera Semut and The most famous one…GABAN!! Huhuhu.. so was watching kamen rider (not sure which episode) I was thinking about the armor heart the way we protect our heart..i remember writing something about building a wall around my heart and then again it was to protect me from getting hurt all over again…and now? Well kira cam kamen rider sudah…it will open up when love come near but then morph into an armor when it get too intense..It keep slapping me saying elo jangan ober lar.. ingat nnt ko jugak kiciwa… hehehehe…But Undoubtedly my heart was happy, really happy in the year 2010 for many things happen during this year, which is so memorable to me.

My New Year Resolution…Bah…. Mari kita senarai azam baru…. Ermm don’t be shock

· * Be Vegetarian For A month (I know..this is not possible and can I really do it??….but the great spirit ask me to do it because i was “jajal” in the house….hehehe…(The great spirit want to get to know you nephew…) So gonna pick one month to be total Vegetarian.

· *Read more than 8 novel this year….(I finish 7 novel last year..hope would find more time to read)

· * Renew all my license and maybe get a few new one too (DIVEMASTERS,PARAMEDIK {SJAM} ETC..)

· *Get all my meds reduce…(means managing my body so well that less visit to the doc is require..)

· *I manage to lost 7kg last year, gain it back after i got injured at the gym so gonna try to lose 8kg and try not to gain it back hehehehe…..

· *Go swimming more than twice a week…. Presint 5 have a very nice pool with very nice view… sapa mau join ? hehehe….

· *Master a new language(Or at least able to converse in it)….(Mandarin or Japanase?)….. hehehehehe….

· *Do more spells…(mak esah?? Season of the witch? Tak arr.. Charmed ler…) hehehehe…

· *Overall…Become a warm fuzzy bear…..

So let see.. what the year of the Golden Rabbit bring for me…..FYI Blue Sapphires…are dammnnn expensive *wink*wink hehehe…..