The hermit ...….

I guess I wanted to write about this for  a long time now, but I never found a reason to do so, but well I guess I finally have a reason to bring back the stories. I wrote a book once, never get publish because it was too extreme for Malaysian reader according to the jury at that time.

The stories about a man who was curse by the spirit guardian because, he misused a gift given to him, this curse would then bring bad luck and misfortune to the people he loved..in the end the only thing he can do was to leave them and watch them from a far, he will always be lonely but his happiness come from watching those he loved happy from afar.

I tot the book was going to be an only copy, it turn out I got an inspiration to do a sequel, the hermit who was curse to be lonely forever find someone he care so much, that he is willing to do anything for that someone..now the problem is the curse is still there… and the hermit knows what he has to do…but his heart tell him, this person is so special, you can never get this person out of your heart…but he had too.. or the person he care about would always suffer misfortune and stupid bad luck…

The ending of the sequel was, that person live happily, enjoying his life, and the hermit as usual only happy to see that person happy from a far…although his heart breaks and loneliness haunt him again, it was the right thing to do..his sacrifice for the happiness of others.

The funny part about the two books it never got publish, and it was based on a true account story…” you had grown up I guess, and you have a whole life a head of you  but you can’t move on until I bring the curse away”…..the last word the hermit has say to that special someone…. “ I be watching you, just from a far away place.”

If it only stay as a story…wouldn’t it be a nice dramatic one rather than a heart broken life stories….

Last day of work in 2011

Owh my gosh the month of december has been the most hectic month of the year so far, as you know the study stuff and the work stuff and much much more..... although the anual year end holliday was nearing the work and the juggling for work and study become intense. i got a fever just handling the first week of december. and that was the continuing effect after the thirds seminar. huhuhuhu... dont get me wrong i am loving it so much but i am not sure if my bodY can handle it much longger. i am so lucky that the year end holidAy is coming.. i can totaly rest my tired body then......turn out that my final is held rite after my holiday so the holiday is also spent reading for the final exam in january...Aiiiyyyyoooo..... but well i did sign up for it and with it come all the stress i guesss.... rite now all in my mind is going back home with my family celebreting christmS and new year and resting as much as i can before starting a new year.. a hectic new year...!!!! hehehehe love you alll muaks!!!! huggable Ben

November Skies..!!

The Vacay on early November turn out to be a blessing, it had rested me, and prepared me for a heck of a troublesome week afterward.



I had 5 Assignment to be done before 13 November 2011, there Media studies, sociology, 2 photography assignment and Speaking. My media and sociology are done much early but proof reading it took another two days to do. Speaking was fast because I really like the topic I was presenting which is tarot card.. hahaha… who knew I would used my hobby as a topic for an assignment. But the most challenging assignment would be photography. As I had say before this I am not a photographer and I don’t have an expensive camera, I am just a student with a second hand DSLR and friends that help me. I really want to thank my friend Usmang Awang and Ilham sakyman… you guys really had help a lot… I did not realize how confusing to take a pic, using a compact camera we just snap and if it turn out to be a nice pic then it ok. But using DSLR there technique and setting and composition and much more and that why I am thankful to have a friend like you guys. Huhuhu…


The came 13 nov, first class was occay, but got worked out when the issue about PTPTN came out, but a fun class. The sociology class was great but the problem is during test I spent so much time on the SAT question that I was not able to finish my essay question…what a bummer and I did full reading on all the topic… huhuhu so sad T-T…in speaking class I realize as an ex debater..my skill are really rusty alredi…..T-T..wuuu~~~ and finally in photography class Mr Zul gave another three assignment to be done!! Aiyo…!!! Pitam!!! Huhuhu!!!! So the next seminar…. There be another 6 assignment!! Returning from campus.. I hit my bed and by the next morning I caught a fever..a normal one but really cause me to shut down all body function. Hahahaha…


Honestly I am not fully recover yet… but it seem today people like to aggravate me so much!.. I know I am a low level clerk, but at least I am trying to help, what the used of all that status when you can’t even help the little people that you are suppose to be helping?? If it is really that important you could at least try to help not pretend you can’t hear me on the phone and switch off the phone when I try to call back… my heart goes to those farmer who are trying the best to get everything done, but then people who was suppose to help them who was paid to help them got too busy with, well I don’t know maybe doing her nail or something…..damn you stupid people!! You give civil servant a bad name!!!!!


But in a way today seem to be a productive way with 2 application approve (by officer from ministry) and got at least 5 % work done on the assignment even with a hectic day…


Hugs my beautiful people!!


The huggable ben

Pangkor Vacation.....!!

So 5th of November ....Its actually the anniversary of a friends passing 5 years ago..but It has been 5 years..and I better celebrate his life rather than continue to be sad. He be in my thought always. This year the date fall on a Saturday and a day before the Aidiladha... and that means an extra day off on Monday... !!!

13th of November 2011 is the 4rd seminar and where 5 assignment are to be handed in. So Today (Tuesday 8th Nov) we will be focusing on all the assignment final touch and my day job too. So to better prepared for a week of full concentration, I need a short vacation .....and island Vacay!! Pangkor!~!~!~!~!..... huuuu!~!!! yeah!! Hehehehe...
So this year, 5 of us went to Pangkor Island....our activity are swimming in the sea, sleeping in a freezing resort room, wacth tv, eat dinner, play card, swimming in the pool, eat late dinner, snacking in front of tv in a freezing room, eat snack, eat breakfast, swim in the sea, continue swimming in the sea, riding around the island atc... so..the summary of activity would be Eat,swim,sleep, wacth tv,swim ..hehehe...yes that the thing that really relax me. I hope my friends enjoy it too. But this is not just a vacay..it is also a mission to finish my assignment for photo communication ..thanks to mang for the info and skill shared....
But the Sea, the wind, the fresh air, the amazing view, the warm sea water, the sun ....really make me melancholy...I started to miss someone...and wishing that someone was there with me....all the way back home I can’t stop thinking about that someone. Erm..... so lar weird.. I guess Island really has a great impact on me.
On the beach I had a lot of thinking done, what if...I finally say it out loud what my heart is saying, would it make any different? Honestly I don’t think so; it may even cause you to lose friends after that. But I always wanted to do so...problem is I am trained to be a nice person, I don’t have the strength to do that since I do not want to lose a friends or someone I care just because I say it out loud. So let’s keep the real Ben inside. Let the world see who they want to see...maybe someday you have that chance to do it.. but it will be when I have nothing else to lose.
Ok need to get back to my assignment this has been a nice break... huhuhu...




The Huggable Ben..

November Vacay!! Yehhhaaa...!!

Yes...it’s true that I did have a lot to say during October...but this time around I can’t even open a word program to write anything... just too hectic to handle two different job at different location at one time. It really give a new understanding on how multitasking really work for you, tapi burn out is indivertible.



But on a light noted I be going on a excursion to an island this weekend. Although it supposed to be a photographic trip where I should be taking pic for the last 4 assignment to be done for Photo communication course. But in reality it a time to relax near the sea...but with the camera at hand why not do another “multitasking” where we enjoy the excursion and finish our assignment at a stress free environment right?


Sociology....this subject fascinate me a lot....I totally would love to take the subject as a major but well I don’t think that is it possible. Since the subject does not have any direct relation with my job as a government entry level staff. These are for researcher level jobs I guess. But nevertheless it is a fun subject where we learn about communities and culture and after we learn the basic we started to see a pattern in our own circle, see the cultural change and the ethno-centric behaviour or how our friends without realizing it is a bit racist in a way. But as a student of sociology we must be un-bias but keep hold of our own understanding.


What I saw at immigration office...what I heard is that the immigrant is taking over; works for the local are limited. But let me ask you youngster.. if I give you RM2500 a month but you would be doing hard labour... would you accept? For the immigrant a month minimum salary here is a year salary in their own country... so yeah of course they would accept the job offer even with minimum pay. Like our nurses here...they are paid RM1800 a month average RM21600 a year. Overseas they are paid RM 12 500 a month an average of RM150000 a year plus two month paid leave....Ngko mmmammpuu??? Hahahahaha..to much exposure to immigration info I guess hahahaha..


I can’t wait for my small vacay this weekend... a nice swim in the sea would be very nice... owh yeah need to get sun block lotion huhuhu...


Salam Aidilahda to all my friends!!


The huggable ben....

The Hectic October

First this is a truly hectic month indeed, and maybe I may need to do more that my normal once a month blog.

The first thing is that, this month we had more than two seminar at the university, got more than 5 assignment and 3 quiz and online assessment to be done. Owh... yes and the reading for the subject also need to be done in order to be able to do the assignment. That not all we had to learn the basic photography technique and the produce a portfolio for it too. Almost all assignment had been done and only the photograph assignment 2 and 3 portfolio is yet to be done...suddenly came the sociology assignment and yes that add to the number of assignment to be done by October although the deadline is in November. The Hectic month of October indeed for me as a student.

Then come the workplace hectic-ness, I was sent to the Immigration department on-loan basis to do some data entry for the ministry, yeah sure seem to be ok at the moment but then come the problem when our officer went on maternity leave and the other officer does not seem to be around. I totally can just say anything to the people coming to the counter but the problem is , it may not be the correct instruction and may lead them to do some unnecessary documentation and further delay their registration. So yeah although we seem to to have anything to do at the moment, we are actually trying to figure out whut are we doing here and what should we do? This is truly a “Tragedi October” situation here...aiyooo... help... dunno what to do at the moment.....!!!
My nephew got bitten by and insect , and i am worry about him,  many more accurance that seem to be centred in October... so yeah a hectic October indeed!!!!

Happppyyy BBBddddaaaayyyyy NNNNNEEPPPHHHEEEWWW ROOMMMEERROOO!!!

The Huggable Ben

The September Skies

Its been a while since i wrote anything but the thing is, i could have not find the word to explain what had happen to me this month, because the fear that the nobility of the event would be obscure by it. but i would like to say something about the changes i see with me...

in September skies after 18th it seem my life have totally change, i used to sleep late because i was watching drama on TV or VCD or Anime...now i am sleeping late because i was catching up on my reading

My bed used to be messy because of magazine and mangga... now, its messy with print out noted and texts books. plus a camera that i borrow for the class on photography.... which remind me

I don't really have a knack with photography, i usually be an object within the photograph, now i am reading and practicing basic technique of photography because it a compulsory subject in my course... but that is justified because my course relay heavy in media so... the need to at least have the basic in photography.

I register as a part time student but it felt like i am a full time student because i am almost always in Campus for the past few weeks to manage my resource and yeah some application for sponsorship and what not.... then i felt student life again.... RM5 can get you a full set of lunch, where as at the office RM5 only get you Afternoon Tea... going to bookstore and spending more time at the reference section rather than the fiction section which is my fav section of all. and actually going to library and do some extra studying,

opening up the computer are not just for reports and facebooking but also to do research for the assignment the lecturer given...

i am a bit tired and sore.. from all the reading and extra traveling... but i am not stress at all...and now i was wondering what with all the stress during full time student life...you have all the time to do reading an assignment and you don't have to plan your study time around your working hour... full time student is a blast in my POV....It what i wanted and what i dreaming of.... me with a student badge... hehehe...and i am thankful for all the hardship it cause me, because it make me felt more alive than before..

Huggable ben