I survive the apocalypse..... (=^w^=)...meow...

Own I did not put any posting for December, well that just show how hectic it was last month. When the Study task and work collide and cause an epic time of busyness that almost ruined my Christmas shopping plan.

But gladly was able to do some shopping but still was not able to buy everything on my list.

So what happen in December? I almost cried when my politic lecturer made a mural of red ink of my project report which took me more than a week to finish researching and prepared for the submission. I don’t really fond of the subject really but well it is a core, so maybe i bare the torment and learn a few knowledge of this subject called “POLITIC”

Finishing up the 3^rd semester, at the start of the semester, my motivation was down for a while when I had to drop my research topic because I was not able to cope the subject alone. And the psychology researches prove that to do any research subject you can’t do it alone. You need a good and hard working team that are able to be with your during the ups and down of the research.

I found my latest craze..... Don’t want to be the elf in LOTR... Want to be the Dwarves Warriors... hehehe.. As I had said before sabahan are known to be short and tubby and we live in a land with a huge mountain... totally feeling the dwarves journey as me as a dwarven prince returning home.. The movie is so touching... I can’t wait till they release the DVD and I am totally going to buy it.

December is always so dear to me. It is the time when I take my holiday and go back home to spend time with the family. Miss them so much since my last trip back home was December last year, it is literally been a years since I saw any of them. mom and dad, my sister and brother. My niece and my nephew.. Spending quality time with them. Also got to meet up with special ones too..... because you’re special hehehe...

So semester finals in January then a long break before we start again.

I was waiting for what going to happen on the 21^st of December 2012, it was a total let down but I least now I can say I survive the apocalypse...wuuu~~~~ Welcome January 2013, Finals? Come at me bro.. hehehe...

The Huggable Ben

The November Rain

The time of the semester has come, a tiring time where we are trying to finish everything that the lecturer had given us at the start of the semester. I am loving this but yeah I am tired, out of stamina and kind of lack of motivation...

So what do I do when I felt that way? I watch movies.. Those student who think that college life are hard, try watching homeless to Harvard a liz murray story.... and then compare it to your own life... then try to say your life is hard I dare you!!!

That is what this all about, conditioning yourself. I been working for the past 6 years in the government and all I need in the paper qualification to move up and better myself. I might not be able to achieve one of my former dreams but I make use of what I have now and become the best pokemon trainer... erk... wrong dream... hehehehe... I be the best of what I do... communicate!!!

Since I am waiting for the latest episode form Naruto..oh yeah another of my dream to be a shinobi... !! hahahahahaha... I been enjoying myself with pokemon episode.... I wish I could have a bulbasaur... huhuhu... and a phanpy too.. hehehehe....

I just drift myself in the fantasy world from time to time so that I won’t miss home, family and my niece and nephew a lot. Especially during November rain. Christmas is just around the corner... so yeah I am a bit home sick cause my last time back home was last year Christmas, so it be like almost a year from home... a witch training should be over by now.... but I still have a degree to attained huhuhuhu...

So yeah got my ticket back home.. i be home soon.... but again the be final exam too soon huhuhu.... gambatee ne!!!

Huggable Ben....

Swept Away...

Recently I felt that I was swept away, swept away from something that I was supposed to be focusing on. 

How come this be? Although I still able to cope with the current yet I felt I getting farther away from my main goal. This is not got not good at all but then I realize that I don’t have an anchor strong enough to keep me in my main course.

I miss my two anchor, both lost following the course of time in which both taken their own way. I never thought that an independent person like me could be so dependent on another individual. I really used up their aura when they were around and now that they far away although still reachable still felt the lost.

Wake up Ben!!!!... it already half way through the semester... we need to focus on our studies totally need to focus!!.. huhuhu...

Let’s Lay it down..

We have ;-

Psychology- Research/Presentation/Quiz and final {READING}

Government and Politics- 3 Case study/Presentation/ Quiz and Final {READING}

 Managerial Communications-Group assignment/Individual/Presentation and Final {READING}

Writing For Public Relations-8 Assignments and Final Test {Writing}

Hurm...Sheeting my shinobi sword...LET DO IT!!! HHHUUAAARRRGG!!!!!

The Huggable Ben

I am still finding my rhythms

I am still at a state of limbo I guess, haven’t really found my rhythm at the new place. I have to admit that it is nice here, but as I say I haven’t found my rhythms yet.

This even show up in my sleeping pattern, normally I get home and directly fall asleep because of the hectic-ness but well at the new place I am more of slow and steady pace. But for someone who had already been used to the hectic-ness. I am well a bit. Blur by the change.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that I don’t like it here. Just that maybe I miss my old friends there. I have new friends now, but well i guess this is another phase that I had to go through in my life, In order to grow wise like the old oak tree.

But I think I am getting there already, I am trying to find ways to make my task more realisable and doing much more than normal yet not to much that it that it would be overwhelming huhuhu..

Although I am thinking on how to make the most of my free time since travelling time had been reduced dramatically hehehehe... neyway glad that I getting along...

The Huggable Ben

The dream...

Well my last post was about my Facebook acc was hacked, I guess it is just a font for the admin to check whether or not you are a human or a cloned account for someone who is stalking someone else hahaha...

Well at dawn I had a weird dream... a very weird dream indeed, but I like the dream alot, because it was something I wanted to do for such a long time yet unable to do so because well “moral constraint” hahahahaha... owh come on it is not a notti stuff, it a cute stuff butt well I don’t think the general population would be able to accept it huhuhu... but the dream spark something in my heart, it make me care for something which I normally stay away from.  But that just me I guess, always have that one time, where it start popping up once in a while, I'll buried it soon in some way, so it would not end up hurting my heart again .... huhuhu, this is all because I started the dream enhancer ritual which supposed to increased your awareness during a dream which meant you have total control, yeah that be nice if it really does work rite? But the dream was very nice indeed, I like it so much huhuhu. Because ? as i had say just now, something that I would like to do but unable to do so because of “Moral Constraint”...erm.. I wish I could tell someone about it but the rule is, until I fully understand the massage the dream brings, it could never be told to anyone.

It the Raya Season, food is abundance during this season, so of course we have to see what we eat so that we would not overdo ourselves, but yeah this is the season to break the rule. I love all the Raya food around me hehehe. But tomorrow is blood works day and let see if the doctor is in favour of the result or not ... but I need to change my meds so I can manage my diabetic better I guess.. huhuhu~~

The Huggable Ben

MY FB ACC WAS HACKED!!!

Doing this post to inform that my FB account was hacked at 4pm 29 august 2012, anything where from me is not me but from the hacker...

peh...fofular siot aq sampaki Acc nak kene HACK.....

Aisey!!!

Thank You St Jude!!

I Promise that when I start the novena I would invoke people to pray to St Jude. Yes The Patron Saint of lost cause. When everything seems to be have no hope and miracles would appear.

But yes, being a Neo-Hermit myself (what that? If you don’t understand what it is, then you won’t understand If I explain it either) I would be lying if I say I have my doubt, but if your sincere with your request and understand the implication of it. You would be able to see the gift which no one else would be able to.

For Example, you hungry, so you ask for KFC, you may not get KFC but maybe you meet someone whom might bring you to KFC and buy you a dinner plate... that now what happen to me I am just giving a simple example for you to understand.

So I am Posting this in my blog.. to say Thanks to St Jude, for I had ask you see in my heart what I really need and help me to find what I had lost which is “passion”..

With a sincere heart and lots and lots of patient.. My prayer was answered..Thanks you Saint Jude!!!! Through your intercession he had answered me.....Thanks you again

MGBU everyone!!!!