The September Skies

Its been a while since i wrote anything but the thing is, i could have not find the word to explain what had happen to me this month, because the fear that the nobility of the event would be obscure by it. but i would like to say something about the changes i see with me...

in September skies after 18th it seem my life have totally change, i used to sleep late because i was watching drama on TV or VCD or Anime...now i am sleeping late because i was catching up on my reading

My bed used to be messy because of magazine and mangga... now, its messy with print out noted and texts books. plus a camera that i borrow for the class on photography.... which remind me

I don't really have a knack with photography, i usually be an object within the photograph, now i am reading and practicing basic technique of photography because it a compulsory subject in my course... but that is justified because my course relay heavy in media so... the need to at least have the basic in photography.

I register as a part time student but it felt like i am a full time student because i am almost always in Campus for the past few weeks to manage my resource and yeah some application for sponsorship and what not.... then i felt student life again.... RM5 can get you a full set of lunch, where as at the office RM5 only get you Afternoon Tea... going to bookstore and spending more time at the reference section rather than the fiction section which is my fav section of all. and actually going to library and do some extra studying,

opening up the computer are not just for reports and facebooking but also to do research for the assignment the lecturer given...

i am a bit tired and sore.. from all the reading and extra traveling... but i am not stress at all...and now i was wondering what with all the stress during full time student life...you have all the time to do reading an assignment and you don't have to plan your study time around your working hour... full time student is a blast in my POV....It what i wanted and what i dreaming of.... me with a student badge... hehehe...and i am thankful for all the hardship it cause me, because it make me felt more alive than before..

Huggable ben

The Miracle of August

15 august 2011… a miraculous day indeed for me.. Because on that day something that I prayed for was answered…. I wanted so bad to return as a student, felt that there just something incomplete that I would really like to get done… and yes it was to continue my studies… these past few years, I can say there are many chances for me to continue but there is always a reason not to. There is the financial reason , the time reason, then the focus reason and many more. So I just justified everything as “it is not my time” to do so.. So I waited and waited and waited until one of my friends say..” ala apply jer ben, dorang terima, ok ler, klu tak dorang ler rugi….” A funny quote from my friend Mohd Farid Shaar…. But dude.. From that quote I followed what you had said and yes I was accepted…with all the obstacle before hand, the path become clearer and everything just become obvious..it is time to return Ben… return back ….and complete the uncompleted mission that has haunted most of your adult (adult??) life….huhuhu…. Like a Rogue ninja, returning to the hidden village to become a legendary Ninja (just watched Naruto….bare with me kay..!)

I like my course coordinator… he called me by my name and not the usual “bob” and actually remember what I say to him during the interview we had….The Name My Parent gave me is JOVEN… not sure if my mum and dad actually knew what the real meaning of it when they gave it to me, but in Spanish It brings the meaning of “Young” it really explain a lot of stuff though… but to hear someone calling you..”mr ‘young’ joven..” is really funny and but I like it because someone actually remember your name and their meaning.

I am a bit homesick also during this month….I miss my baby nephew Elden at home… and of course my nephew Romero too… but during fasting month, when we buy food at the Ramadan bazaar you cant help missing your mother and sister cooking….dun know why but I miss my mum chicken curry and my sis ‘ayam masak kicap’ plus suddenly a few days ago I kinda miss my grandmum fried rice too… been to a few bazaar, yet never seem to find any as good as theirs..

Sent my dear lappy to the lappy hospital, and the diagnose doesn’t seem to be good but what to do, I need it, especially now when half of my subject are writing subject and the mode for study are mainly online forum so…a full upgrade needed hehehe…

The weight update…after 24 day’s of full fasting but grand break-fasting…only manage to shed 5 kg… actually not bad, but if you tell the doc that he would say “you could lose more than that..” But an appa wouldn’t be cute if it look like and eel hound rite…(Ann the last airbender….) huhuhu

That all I guess for now…huhu…

The huggable ben….

End of JULY 2011

(supposed to be posted on 31^st July but just realize that blogger was ban from the com huhuhu..)

As always wasn’t able to do blogging the whole month, actually to be honest I did not really felt the time passing the whole month, I really did not realize that today was the 31^st, and wonder what happen the whole month of July..

I knew a lot had happen in July but I just could not find the time to actually wrote anything….hey I think I have the same line like last month… huhuhu… I really think I need more time for myself…. I want an island retreat …hehehehe… maybe soon I guess…

Some stuff that I felt was not really suppose to happen yet had happen because well the people involve did not think what they did can effect other’s ….you advise other that the thing you do was not for material gain of personal solution to your personal problem yet you tell everyone that’s why those chosen one are allow to do it because “kesian” they have personal problem….So stupid that’s why lar people are talking behind your back. You reason are so selfish. Huhuhu….

But not all that happen during July was bad… I mean Harry potter last movie came out…and It was amazing……a very great end for such an amazing story….. I wish It never end but well a story should have an start and an end….. and it was legendary….

Another Legendary stuff that happen during July was …I went to watch the LIVERPOOL football team playing against Harimau Malaya….as everyone know I am not really a football fan but when we have 85000 people screaming like there is no tomorrow it was an amazing experience ….really amazing indeed

Owh almost forgot the stupid demo that happen at 9 July 2011, I am not sure if they got any massage through.. but I think the guy who had a sex change and die after her pled was rejected made a much more meaning full massage.

Got myself a great book this month and although only gone thorough 40% of it.. I was really nice… only need to find the best time to used it… oh yeah need to find a purple pen for a spell I been practicing hehehe….

Owh yeah July also was the month were I started using crystal again. After a few month I did not use them because guess to much confusion ….happening after the last time.. guess I a crystal user after all..

Erm…. I wanted a galaxy tab….but the whole month of research just advise me that I wouldn’t be suitable for me financially huhuhu… even the big book of everything financial said so…huhuhu…so maybe a playbook instead? Hahahaha….

Missing my dear nephew elden….:-( and nephew Romero too… but that the thing about being a hermit….family are always far away….on our journey to self discovery and cultivation of one own virtue…It a code …so if you don’t understand don’t worry it not meant for you….huhuhu…

Welcome August….bubuy July and also welcome Rahmadan….boleh jadik cam dua tahun lepas tak? Hilang 7kg…well try our best I guess….!!

Saturday morning in June….

I don’t know why I cant seem to find the time and stuff to put in the blog recently… there was a few times where there is a very interesting topic to write about, but then the timing was no rite and at the end of the day never got to write it down…

One thing I learned recently is that what people consider to be an easy job in reality is not..i mean I went to a course recently…and from the detail of the task is not really something easy and there is a lot to do…. But if your good, it seem that it was a simple task indeed..but again when you actually doing it… damnnn so complicated…

Went back home for my annual mid year holiday to relax and recuperated….only have a few day leave so gonna make full use of it…. So really was spending much time with family especially my new nephew Elden….the newest member of the family…wait Elden first name was Jericho….yeah I know Spanish rite… hehehe….just like his uncle … and also went shoping and just generally enjoying myself with sis jess and nephew Robbie….since he finish studying already…CONGRAT nephew Robbie…some ritual was perform at the house after the mystical news of an paranormal engagement. which I am still puzzle why and how did it happen…but I am glad that the ritual when on great and ok I guess..... my schedule during my mid year was so pack that I was not able to meet some of my friends..sowie about that.. some many thing to do yet so little time but at least we enjoyed our time spent together rite..

Came back from the holiday, got a course to attend to at Jalan Elmu,which is a remote institute with no café and the food are ration so yeah I was totally hungry all the time… but then again the trip was fun and the knowledge gain was priceless…the new friends encounter also was great, sharing experience and stories from different department was a good way to learn new and comprehensive method to learn new and exciting technique… was what a long statement hahahahaa….the short version was a camp with children that have a lot of experience to share is always fun… hehehehe..

Currently still in bed listening to radio bayu and reminiscing my home town..huhuhu….

Congrat to Bro Dino on your wedding day ya….. have fun everyone there….(huhu…so sad tak leh join…) huhuhuhu…

The huggable ben on a Saturday morning in June….huhuhu….

Another Feverish weekend I guess…

Another feverish weekend I guess.. body did not feel well since this morning.. and the extra low heat in the office increase the symptom.. a bit blur..low blood sugar.. and sleepiness, huhuhu…. Last fever was 15 of February 2011, It was not really a fever I think but all the symptom was there… lay in bed for the whole afternoon.

A bit late for my bday blog but rite after my bday weekend, my schedule was so pack that I could not squeeze any time to do a single blog.. Accept for the update on facebook.. which well I am addicted to hahahaha….

I think the second last post before this one I wrote something about waiting for something to come and before the news come I am stuck in the hovering stage…. Well the “news” came and it did not goes as plan… but then again the news came during the time when I was very very happy and the effect of the blow was not that hurtful as I tot It might… and the celebration that come after the news came really healed me faster. The next step was to choose the next best step to move on… then I got the call for an interview to go to Korea..it was just an interview but at least this year I am invited to try my luck than last year. So well I am happy about that too.. the next step would be after the month of may so.. for the time being I am still hovering…. Huhuhu….

The Phrase “Just Go With It” was the title of the new Adam Sandler and Jennifer Aniston movie…I haven’t seen the movie yet but the phrase was some how explaining the few stuff happening around me… we all know how the requirement to process some documentation is a bit redundant and really troublesome for those who are not train in it.. what really hurt me in a way, was it because I was the one helping them to prepare the document…?? Cian the person who was doing the process.. Always queried by higher ranking people for the ridiculous request… but I am very thankful of the person doing the process.. and for the higher ranking people…as I am a passive person….”I Just go with it..” at least at the end of the day… my friends which I help still receive what he deserve… Just prove to this higher ranking people that all this while.. you not doing your job…. Plus I know how you come up with the idea… since the source accidently spill her gut while trying to defend your request….no maturity even at that age!! Huhu…

Ok I think I take half day today since boday say go and rest….

So the huggable ben on his way to clinic…..

Cloud on a sunny day…!! wuuu~~~

Today start a bit hectic.. woke up a bit late….running to catch the bus… having coffee on the go.. yet the sun was shining….. I felt very nice…but then again the feeling I had for the past few weeks came to haunt me… I wrote something about waiting for something and because until I got the news I be hovering and waiting for the moment the news to come..I have a feeling that it would not come along my way…so I did prepare a few things to do as a second option …. So at last I got the news….and as I expected it did not go my way.. so to be honest a bit heart broken…but as I learn from many experience.. when god close a door … he open a window…. And I guess I be using the window…after I choose which window to use…. :-P

Strangely I tot I would be more heart broken from the news than what I am felling now…. But I guess the big guy up there have his plan…. So he blessed me with a happy and sunny day today… so when the news come…..it would not hurt that much….and I worked. But then again…. That life…..if life throw you lemons.. you make lemonade..

So even there was a cloud on my sunny day, It was just there to cold down the land a little bit…

Thank you so much for all the De’early Bday Wishes…..and Present too…

The huggable which getting more huggable with a 5 kilo of ice-cream to gobble down!! Hahahaaha

Ben

I am drawing the line…..

There is a limit, there is always a limit for everything, for the good thing and also for the bad….I cant really do anything more, since you had tap out everything out of me… it is here where I draw the line… and say.. this is my limit… no matter how much I wanted to do more, I could not do more than what I had done already… I am waiting for your response, if I did the rite thing you would respond by respecting my decision and appreciate what have I done for you..huhuhu…tapi dalam hati ada gak perasaan would really like to help more…but biler ko nak blajar handle benda ni sendiri….huhuhuhu… huhuhu……..

Rhythm keje minggu ni agak tergangu skit walaupun able to handle everything and today for at least 2 hours my work station was clear.. then it was again fill with task to done before the end of the week…. Which actually is the easy part.. but my mind was not 100% here at the moment…..my mind is far away…waiting…..for something…..because if it did not come then I have the second option ready to go….but until anything can be confirmed I am stuck in the middle….hovering in silent……erm…motivasi takde siot….

A few things to do during lent…..i have list already done let see if I could actually do everything…but for these past few days cam ok lak huhuhu……I would like to be a monk for a couple of week just to get my head together again…huhuu….

Another day and life of…

The Huggable Ben