The Miracle of August

15 august 2011… a miraculous day indeed for me.. Because on that day something that I prayed for was answered…. I wanted so bad to return as a student, felt that there just something incomplete that I would really like to get done… and yes it was to continue my studies… these past few years, I can say there are many chances for me to continue but there is always a reason not to. There is the financial reason , the time reason, then the focus reason and many more. So I just justified everything as “it is not my time” to do so.. So I waited and waited and waited until one of my friends say..” ala apply jer ben, dorang terima, ok ler, klu tak dorang ler rugi….” A funny quote from my friend Mohd Farid Shaar…. But dude.. From that quote I followed what you had said and yes I was accepted…with all the obstacle before hand, the path become clearer and everything just become obvious..it is time to return Ben… return back ….and complete the uncompleted mission that has haunted most of your adult (adult??) life….huhuhu…. Like a Rogue ninja, returning to the hidden village to become a legendary Ninja (just watched Naruto….bare with me kay..!)

I like my course coordinator… he called me by my name and not the usual “bob” and actually remember what I say to him during the interview we had….The Name My Parent gave me is JOVEN… not sure if my mum and dad actually knew what the real meaning of it when they gave it to me, but in Spanish It brings the meaning of “Young” it really explain a lot of stuff though… but to hear someone calling you..”mr ‘young’ joven..” is really funny and but I like it because someone actually remember your name and their meaning.

I am a bit homesick also during this month….I miss my baby nephew Elden at home… and of course my nephew Romero too… but during fasting month, when we buy food at the Ramadan bazaar you cant help missing your mother and sister cooking….dun know why but I miss my mum chicken curry and my sis ‘ayam masak kicap’ plus suddenly a few days ago I kinda miss my grandmum fried rice too… been to a few bazaar, yet never seem to find any as good as theirs..

Sent my dear lappy to the lappy hospital, and the diagnose doesn’t seem to be good but what to do, I need it, especially now when half of my subject are writing subject and the mode for study are mainly online forum so…a full upgrade needed hehehe…

The weight update…after 24 day’s of full fasting but grand break-fasting…only manage to shed 5 kg… actually not bad, but if you tell the doc that he would say “you could lose more than that..” But an appa wouldn’t be cute if it look like and eel hound rite…(Ann the last airbender….) huhuhu

That all I guess for now…huhu…

The huggable ben….

End of JULY 2011

(supposed to be posted on 31^st July but just realize that blogger was ban from the com huhuhu..)

As always wasn’t able to do blogging the whole month, actually to be honest I did not really felt the time passing the whole month, I really did not realize that today was the 31^st, and wonder what happen the whole month of July..

I knew a lot had happen in July but I just could not find the time to actually wrote anything….hey I think I have the same line like last month… huhuhu… I really think I need more time for myself…. I want an island retreat …hehehehe… maybe soon I guess…

Some stuff that I felt was not really suppose to happen yet had happen because well the people involve did not think what they did can effect other’s ….you advise other that the thing you do was not for material gain of personal solution to your personal problem yet you tell everyone that’s why those chosen one are allow to do it because “kesian” they have personal problem….So stupid that’s why lar people are talking behind your back. You reason are so selfish. Huhuhu….

But not all that happen during July was bad… I mean Harry potter last movie came out…and It was amazing……a very great end for such an amazing story….. I wish It never end but well a story should have an start and an end….. and it was legendary….

Another Legendary stuff that happen during July was …I went to watch the LIVERPOOL football team playing against Harimau Malaya….as everyone know I am not really a football fan but when we have 85000 people screaming like there is no tomorrow it was an amazing experience ….really amazing indeed

Owh almost forgot the stupid demo that happen at 9 July 2011, I am not sure if they got any massage through.. but I think the guy who had a sex change and die after her pled was rejected made a much more meaning full massage.

Got myself a great book this month and although only gone thorough 40% of it.. I was really nice… only need to find the best time to used it… oh yeah need to find a purple pen for a spell I been practicing hehehe….

Owh yeah July also was the month were I started using crystal again. After a few month I did not use them because guess to much confusion ….happening after the last time.. guess I a crystal user after all..

Erm…. I wanted a galaxy tab….but the whole month of research just advise me that I wouldn’t be suitable for me financially huhuhu… even the big book of everything financial said so…huhuhu…so maybe a playbook instead? Hahahaha….

Missing my dear nephew elden….:-( and nephew Romero too… but that the thing about being a hermit….family are always far away….on our journey to self discovery and cultivation of one own virtue…It a code …so if you don’t understand don’t worry it not meant for you….huhuhu…

Welcome August….bubuy July and also welcome Rahmadan….boleh jadik cam dua tahun lepas tak? Hilang 7kg…well try our best I guess….!!