Day 15 of MCO, as always it almost been 3 months since my
last entry...I can’t believe that was held up with so many stupid things that
normally won’t even effect my wellbeing but because of its small yet significant
issue I had me going like down ward spiral ever since.
Being the hermitic life that I am not, only allow myself a
few excursions with friends here and there, much to my amazement that I have
been trying to maintain something that was just stupid for me to do in the
first place. A friend tries to warm me but because I haven’t seen the truth in
that particular way yet at the time, I honestly didn’t see it. At last
something happen and truth become clearer than ever before, hence stern action
was taken no matter what. It did cause some confusion at 1st but
then again what new it the life of chubby Ben.
It been 13 years and more since I started working and a lot
of stuff happen during these time that change my life considerately. But I think
in my own word. I had enough of this and it’s time for me to get back home or
near to home. And I actually started the event in motion unintentionally. I
keep my prayer short and simple asking for help in trying to get my life back
in order, and actually in some way it does during the MCO. Enough time for
myself to do some spring cleaning and further de-clutter and actually reducing
what I really need until I got the news that change is coming in another few
week and hence I just realize that how much thing I got to reduce in order the
journey back for the coming changes soon.
Come to think of it I am getting a bit sad that I have to be
on this journey and leave my friends behind, some of them have been with me for
such a long time that I really think that I be very sad to no hang out with
them again soon. But change is the only constant hence I make new friends soon
but my old friend will forever with me in my heart and on social media. Hope
they come visit me soon and maybe we could have a very nice trip to where I am
going.
Everything seem to fall into place at the moment, setting me
on a path that would make me grow even more I hope. Yeah it’s a bit far but
like that the best I can do for now… hopefully soon I could do and much nearer
place to my hometown. The fiscal unbalance situations now also seem to have a
great solutions hence I hope by the time all this isolation movement has come
to an end and we are able to fight off the virus attacking human kind we would
be on a better situations and moving toward to be a better person…wuuuuu~~~
cant wait.. Thank you big guy up there~~~~~
Huggable Hermitic Ben……
