Monday, April 28, 2008

I am unwell….


I am unwell….

A few friends sms me just now.. I am sorry that I was late in replying, a bit unwell today… I think I am coming down with a fever, body in warm but I felt cold, headache too…,

The biggest sign of an upcoming fever is “ I lost my appetite” did not take any rice today, just water… body well a bit wuzzzy…

Lack of staff in the unit again, although at a slow phase… work must be done I guess….

I can even do this blog…… I am so weak rite now….

Going to go home now…

P/s at a time like this I wish I have someone to cuddle, but since I don’t, so virtual hugs to everyone!!

The Unwell but Huggable Ben

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Nite of warmth and cuddles….


I cant believe that I am doing another one… but today seem to start very slow.. then makin hot until I came back just now, which is 2.32am… yeap…it was a hot nite.. indeed…..

This kind of thing always happen during the weirdest timing, after I finish my online mania at Times square.. I went to have my dinner where a faithfull meet up with someone, that I never tought I never see again….. so we catch up on a few stuff..then… one thing lead to another.. and I came back at 2.32 am hehehehe I even got something to commemorate the nite…. So my secretary friends.. tomorrow we have a show and tell ok.. hehehehe I know I am like so hot rite now… (Paris Hilton Slang….) oh yeah I mean I am done for the day…. but I got so much energy left…. Hehehe…and since I cant think of anything else to do to, I am doing another one…

I not sure if any of you agree with me, but since it was a nice thing that happen, I guess someone up that is giving me a nudge! Cheering me up!! Saying that nice things does happen to people like me, I wish my campus friends was around, cerita… mesti panjang…. Well since in 3 hour I have to go to work I better get to bed now…

Hugs to all…God Bless!!!!

The Huggable Ben

The Weekends......

Had a nice visitor last Friday… hehehe, fun nite indeed… but then the weekend came and i just realize I don’t have anything plan at all, so lar boring pastu…

Jalan2 to some of the college around kl on Saturday, just looking and droping something off there.. after that I went back to my room and stay almost for the rest of the day.. indoor, strange how time seem to move so fast, when we are not waiting for anything, next thing I know, it was Saturday nite, and because I was not planning to watch the concert tonite, I took to the street, went to pasar malam Kuala Lumpur, which bring back memories……

But well nothing much to see there, just people watching and well cheap food… hehehe tell you the truth the food was really nice..but the thing is, to take it back home was a bit messy, to much sauce .. hehehehe.. . Plus after you done with all those food you need to clean them up or the ants be up your room..hehehe…

So today seem to be a slow day, so I decide to go online…at Starbuck… hehehehe I know I told you guys I am broke, but well you see I just buy a cup of coffee and “bang!!” non stop online mania… plus the wireless signal seem to be very fast today, I was able to download a few episoded from my latest craze favorite show…”Ghost Hunters”.. they don’t actually catch or hunt ghost but the investigation and the reveal part always interest me.

Plus I finally can update some of my profile, like friendsters, Hi5 and many more…. It been while, been a bit bz, with the new system I am developing for the office, not really in a stable mode yet. Plus there are always “hantu stoking” lurking there, waiting to ruin everthing.

But well whutever it is, I try to make everything as stable as possible, P/s this is not a computer system k, hehehe The GOE-EDGMS is going to be on soon but until that happen, I can only hope on my manual system…

Wow…did I told you that they try to cut the communication and the stuff I do in the office… but they don’t know that I was using other system that bypass almost everything that can be block, just that recently the securities was a bit week.. so I use the simplest connections, Stupid tul peg and hantu stoking tue.. korang blok aku, korang pun kene blok sama… bodoh….tul!!! hehehehehe… plus I still can connect and so does my friends because kteorang dah lama buat benda ni……..wakakakakaak… just cant wait to see their face when they see that I still can chat, when they all cant anymore…. Wakaakakakakakaka…….

Ops I sound so evil huh??? Hehehehe….

That me

The Huggable Ben

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

27 Dresses…..




I can spend the whole nite talking about this movie, cant believe that I finally found the one movies that tell a lot about myself and the character turn out to be a girl… owh my…. Totally ler….Ironic….Katherine Heigl was great in Knocked up , she was great in 27 dresses too

The movie is like my favorite anime where every time we watch it. It just tell you more about yourself. By the way my favorite anime is fruit basket…..

I felt Jane pain when she went in the restaurant and her prince charming was waiting there and it there was a proposal for marriage and suddenly the man of your dream say ”ops, she not the one, wrong girl…” AUCH!!!

And the part when she found out about Kevin who actually her favorite writer…”it like finding out your favorite love song was about a sandwich” hehehe…..i don’t know why, but it sound funny to me.….

But my favorite line as single person are..” Yes, yes it is, but then I remember that I got to have hot heat sex with random stranger and I felt so much better”… yeah this one was a great line….

I can spend the whole nite talking about the movie, believe me I can…. It just great to find another great movie.. Here my list of great movie… movie that have inspire some part of my life…

You Got Mail (The one is so beautiful), Shrek (funny yet romantic), Tattoo a Love Story (another great romantic funny movie, the one that make you say awh…..), Homeless to Harvard (very motivational) and now my dear friend we have 27 Dresses…..


The Huggable Ben

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Just a sad day…….

I am not sure why I felt sad? I try to tell myself, that it all ok, I want to say that I don’t even care, that I don’t need that person, problem is I don’t need that person but I do care…..

Could it be that I am just jealous? It might be, that I am just jealous, but I felt jealous before, I doesn’t felt like this, I want to be nice.. I want to be friendly, but I have to be nasty, because that the only way,

I am not hurt in any way, just that I am sad, that I can’t be myself, I can’t be to caring of someone because that person is someone else’s, it unfair of me to interfere, although that person try so hard trying to get my attention, I just can’t, I am sorry, I am very sorry…..

By the looks of it, you happy rite? So just maintain being happy ok, with me you just making things hard on yourself.

Let me be me, here and alone, I learn it for some time now, that I was destined to be lonely, so let it be ok, just let it be, I am able to move on, why cant you? Just let go ok….

Well there you go, that Ben I guess. FYI I did not run from a fight…..it not even my fight, that person make it clear that I was not eligible to fight……

Just need to let it out guys….. hugs!!!!

The Huggable Ben