December Is here....

December is here…and I still don’t get it why I have a strange felling this morning, plus a strange dream last nite…

But anyway, I felt like something I need to do something about what I want to do… I felt like doing something more then just what am doing now. But the dream suggest that I should wait… hehehe.. I guess my subconscious mind is rite in a way.

I was asked, why did I run off escaping from the city any chance I have, the first thing people would think is that I am having a crush on someone to be constantly be doing that. No not really. I don’t have a secret lover. Just me…

I was trying to understand, what happen recently, what could I have done wrong….then I realize.. I did nothing, I was the same person I was before, and if that does not complement together with it than I better of with my own way I guess….

If you are confused….you on the rite track, since this is not a full blog, just snippet from my thought, and my mind is as confuse as you see at this moment …

Hug muah!!

The Huggable Ben

A shocking statement……..

It started as a regular day today, nothing much plan, and well nothing much to look forward too… but a surprising statement came out from the most unexpected person.. KG admin was looking for the office daily news, but when KG admin couldn’t find it, KG admin came to my desk asking for it, since I was using my head phone… I couldn’t hear KG admin at first but then KG admin grab the head phone and say “ben sayang mana paper hari ni?” I was like …..huh??? what did you say??? Hehehehe…… although KG admin was just joking at that time, but nevertheless is almost like getting something impossible, like a movie actor miraculously knowing who you are.. Although KG admin is not really someone as famous as a artist, just that is one of the KG one of the always want but could never have.. so similar lar kira….

Hehehe a very short one.. but I need to let it out to stop the blushing…. Hehehe

The Huggable Ben

Are you serious? Do you really think I care?

I put this status message up a yesterday, and I got a ton’s or reply, asking what happen, what did they miss and all, just then I realize I haven’t been updating my blog recently. Yeah I had been really quite for the past few weeks. A friend actually ask if I were like hospitalized or something because I always at least update my bulletin. Well I am not hospitalized or anything it just that is almost the end of the year and the amount of work load is piling up. Plus I am having my year end holiday soon so my boss is really piling it up.

What up with the KG and stuff? Nothing much actually. For the past week I was making a effort to finish almost everything that need to be done. So if I go on my holiday, it would not affect my unit so much, I mean there only three functional staff there, and one other staff who have enough experience. Let’s just see what this year will bring. What new issue it will bring? So exciting rite…. hehehe

I need to finish something before I can continue on with another.. but well I still working on this, problem is there just to much for me to finish and time have not been very kind to me at the least. So I planning and fine tuning everything so that I finish it without any a hassle.

Let’s get back to the status message. It was meant for someone indeed but only the person concern would understand it. So if you don’t, it means that that statement was not for you! Hehehe, funny that everybody thinks it was for them, but when I ask why they think so, they themselves aren’t able to answer it.

I have so much to plan and finish, I finally realize I don’t give a damn about other stuff, and making a statement that I am miserable here because a petit issue, well the answer is my status message… “are you serious? Do you really think I care?” and some addition to that” That I give a damn about that?” ….. seriously.. if you think I do, you seriously need help!

Hehehe.. that my mental notes for now…. Until the next blog…. Hugs!!! To all!!

The Huggable Ben…

Happy Anniversary To Me….!!

Yes! Yesterday on the 9 of November 2008 was my 2nd anniversary of being a responsible (really?) mature (are you sure about this?) Adult (felt old with this statement!) but indeed it’s been two years as a Government Officer, although is not really going to be where I work for the rest of my career life. I hope one day I could be like my friend who is having their interview as a secretary at a Malaysian Embassy Oversea…(Europe and Japan wait for me!!) I wish you guys all the best and if you got the post, I would like souvenirs when you guys come back home.

Had a very nice dinner yesterday a buffet seafood restaurant at Sunway. Didn’t ate a lot, just enjoying the chat while waiting for the food to be boil in the steamboat. The ice cream was nice though. Was fun chatting and getting everyone together. Fun part about it is that our counterpart north! In Penang was also having their dinner at a buffet restaurant too. Funny that happened rite….

Few more week to go before my big holiday plan to commerce cant really wait, but I have to, and have to put on the best face to face the yearly appraisal season “The SKT” is due soon.. hehehe…hopefully this year I at least could score more than last year.

Week left until we say goodbye to 2008….

The Huggable Ben Mashimaro

It Still Hurt……

Well I been quite recently, if you ask me why? I am not really sure but probably I just need to take some time for myself. Because even though it’s been a year, it still hurt…

I was thinking, shouldn’t a heart be heal through time? Shouldn’t I be feeling better by now? But I am not, I spent almost the whole nite, thinking, meditating and calming my self with all the happy memory I had the whole year. It made me smile a for a while and it make me felt better only to find out that it still wasn’t enough. But I have my family and friends. With you guys around, I know I will heal, although slow, but I am confident enough I will be.

So, a friend asks about an entry about the flirting with someone who I was not supposed too… what was the development on that story? Nothing… I have been very quite lately really quite… why are you looking at me like that? :-P!

My office got a new Supervisor…I don’t really know why? But this new superv is kinda Cute! My friends know my definition of cute but, physically the superv is not my definition… but the superv have a kinda nurturing aura that actually creates a situation where you like to bond with the superv….. ewww… kinda weird I guess … but I like the new superv which I am gonna call “KG admin” why? Is something you want but you can’t have… the one desire which we place in the dark…that “KG” so, there is a “KG Jusa” “KG aras1” and strangely I have to admit it to myself “KG admin”

I felt much better after writing this blog! Hope you all enjoy your day! And these last two month of the year 2008! Hugs and kisses!!

Huggable Ben