Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Very long weekends….


Well the weekends Is pretty long indeed, so I guess a bit extended holiday trip would not hurt, it did not, but got injured while walking during the trip, which is like really lame since It was my own fault not looking at where I was walking. But well nak buat cam ner kan... but the trip did show me something which well I did not aspect to witness.

That someone was with someone else, but the thing is, that person keeps on trying to get my attention, it’s cute but well I have to wonder why? Your new partner is there what? The thing is as much as I try to avoid you, you still keep on trying and your partner can see that too, I won’t be surprise if you had a big fight after that. I means paying for my lunch, constantly trying to sit beside me on the table, and that caring gesture(i.e asking if my feet still hurt and all) come on of course ler dier will notice it. Who wouldn’t?

Don’t get me wrong, it was sweet of you but well, as I say, there nothing there anymore, you better off with your new one okay….but thank you for being so sweet. Hope both of you don’t get into a big fight. See I am good what..? angel in the making, halo and wings, hehehe….

Something big happening soon, gonna tell you guys later… what is it…

The Huggable Ben

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Nothing to do….so Project Runaway…


Had nothing to do all night, I just got the whole season 7 CSI collection, but I left it at the office, since that the only thing going to keep me occupied when there is nothing to do.

I had to go overboard just now, because stupidly one of my new boss was too gullible to listen to other before consulting anyone else, plus I mean I don’t study computer science, But I least I know something about computer, don’t think just because I watch anime, means I am immature. O.M.G Bodoh Betul……..

Since there is nothing to do tonight, I was watching Project Runaways, and whut do you know a contestant name Chris March, who was sent home tonight. But his cheerful view and well creativity move me, If only he design for plus size male model!! Hehehehe!! Well we dare to dream rite.

During lunch today, I was out to lunch with one of my classmate, which struck me with a comment which actually really hurt, But well I cant really say that he was wrong cause I was the stupid one’s, I am afraid to start something new, still hopeful for something that is really out of reach and commitment issue. Ewww……this is so not the fun huggable Ben rite talking about this, hehehe…. So that another thing I never seem to grow up, its much more fun like this and less more stressful. So just let me keep the hope and knowing my limits and well never seem to settle down… hehehe… that me…


The Huggable Ben

Sunday, May 11, 2008

What was I thinking?


A n ice week actually I got so into my job that I did not even realize that it wasw the weekends, yesterday I got a epiphany, I realize something was a miss, something that did not register in everyone else normal psychic but It does in mine, strange huh?

Love life is a complicated one it seem, you in love with someone who is not returning that same feeling to you, so what was I thinking still clinging to that person? Why do I still hold the hope that maybe I may get back with that person.

Those you ever been in love would understand this, sometime when we in love we do stupid stuff, that is why, my heart is afraid of being alone and it keep saying that just keep some hope alive, just in case.

I could not say it, I am scared that the hope would die out if I did, so rather than saying it to the person I rather just be there, at least I wont be alone, even with that tiny flame of hope. I guess I was destined to be a lonely person, I traveling monk kind of destiny. But no matter what my heart still say, just cling to that hope, maybe one day! Just in case, we have a chance to have it in our arms those warm and strong hugs!.....

P/s Don’t even bother asking why I wrote this, It was the epiphany I had ok!!


The Huggable Ben

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

The weekends Getaways….


Owh….. you were waiting for my blog on the new pics huh? Hehehe ala letak komen jer ler … but thanks “e” from the pics, he was using this kwel camera, DSLR I think, never would have thought that it turn out that good.

Why do I say it was that good, I have a friends who boyfriends are a photographer for a modeling agency here in Kuala Lumpur, who comment that the pic, add a bit touch up make up, and it might just be good enough to be on a magazine.. wakakaka harus kembang cam belon trus ben.

Last weekend was a real holiday, just me and friends at a waterfall, overnight , playing poker, video and gossip.. whole night long, plus it was a personal victory for me to overcome something that at first I thought it was hard for me, turn out, I was able to withheld the urge, although I see that individual was trying hard to get my attention. It was for the greater good that I place an ignore sign. Wut ever lar… janji I enjoy myself, all refresh for the days ahead.

I was diagnose with a Calcium Deficiency which turn out to be the cause for my bowling score to drop, and sleepless night and knee injury.. but I had a good night sleep last night, and well all are good, accept that my boss is a bit in a bad mood. So kene berhati2 today.. hehe.. although he did give a smile ths morning for no reason, hope not a evil smile ..hehehe

That all from me

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The Huggable Ben

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Nope you still taste nice…


I was at work when everyone was on holiday… I am not sure why, but I need to catch up since these pass few days I was not feeling very well, and my work was back lag so much that I needed a day to catch up, and I found out that although I was back lag for like three days, I was able to catch up in like 5 hour of uninterrupted work….”uninterrupted” mean, interrupted by people, I switch on a movie, and work through it, to keep my barring and focus at work and it work.

Wow….I surprise even myself, but all in all I was a fun day, It was like a picnic, I bought lunch and a drink and I put the movie on loud speaker, when the other staff are around you can never do that, and start doing my work… and I was doing it until there was nothing else to do, It was fun indeed.. hehehe I know now that the working part in my life is not the one that stress me out it the people that sabotage it, that always stress me out, but what the heck. Today is labor day and I honor it by working to my full potential,

I end this one with a comic I just read, It was just so touching, there is this cute old couple, the wife ask the hubby if the soup was nice, the husband say “good, but I cant really say, I guess I don’t taste a good as I do”. The wife bend over “ let me have a taste” she gave him a smooch and say “ nope dear you still taste nice…..” awh….. so cute!!!!

Yeah… you still taste nice…..!! smooch!!!


The Huggable Ben