The hermit ...….

I guess I wanted to write about this for  a long time now, but I never found a reason to do so, but well I guess I finally have a reason to bring back the stories. I wrote a book once, never get publish because it was too extreme for Malaysian reader according to the jury at that time.

The stories about a man who was curse by the spirit guardian because, he misused a gift given to him, this curse would then bring bad luck and misfortune to the people he loved..in the end the only thing he can do was to leave them and watch them from a far, he will always be lonely but his happiness come from watching those he loved happy from afar.

I tot the book was going to be an only copy, it turn out I got an inspiration to do a sequel, the hermit who was curse to be lonely forever find someone he care so much, that he is willing to do anything for that someone..now the problem is the curse is still there… and the hermit knows what he has to do…but his heart tell him, this person is so special, you can never get this person out of your heart…but he had too.. or the person he care about would always suffer misfortune and stupid bad luck…

The ending of the sequel was, that person live happily, enjoying his life, and the hermit as usual only happy to see that person happy from a far…although his heart breaks and loneliness haunt him again, it was the right thing to do..his sacrifice for the happiness of others.

The funny part about the two books it never got publish, and it was based on a true account story…” you had grown up I guess, and you have a whole life a head of you  but you can’t move on until I bring the curse away”…..the last word the hermit has say to that special someone…. “ I be watching you, just from a far away place.”

If it only stay as a story…wouldn’t it be a nice dramatic one rather than a heart broken life stories….

Last day of work in 2011

Owh my gosh the month of december has been the most hectic month of the year so far, as you know the study stuff and the work stuff and much much more..... although the anual year end holliday was nearing the work and the juggling for work and study become intense. i got a fever just handling the first week of december. and that was the continuing effect after the thirds seminar. huhuhuhu... dont get me wrong i am loving it so much but i am not sure if my bodY can handle it much longger. i am so lucky that the year end holidAy is coming.. i can totaly rest my tired body then......turn out that my final is held rite after my holiday so the holiday is also spent reading for the final exam in january...Aiiiyyyyoooo..... but well i did sign up for it and with it come all the stress i guesss.... rite now all in my mind is going back home with my family celebreting christmS and new year and resting as much as i can before starting a new year.. a hectic new year...!!!! hehehehe love you alll muaks!!!! huggable Ben

November Skies..!!

The Vacay on early November turn out to be a blessing, it had rested me, and prepared me for a heck of a troublesome week afterward.



I had 5 Assignment to be done before 13 November 2011, there Media studies, sociology, 2 photography assignment and Speaking. My media and sociology are done much early but proof reading it took another two days to do. Speaking was fast because I really like the topic I was presenting which is tarot card.. hahaha… who knew I would used my hobby as a topic for an assignment. But the most challenging assignment would be photography. As I had say before this I am not a photographer and I don’t have an expensive camera, I am just a student with a second hand DSLR and friends that help me. I really want to thank my friend Usmang Awang and Ilham sakyman… you guys really had help a lot… I did not realize how confusing to take a pic, using a compact camera we just snap and if it turn out to be a nice pic then it ok. But using DSLR there technique and setting and composition and much more and that why I am thankful to have a friend like you guys. Huhuhu…


The came 13 nov, first class was occay, but got worked out when the issue about PTPTN came out, but a fun class. The sociology class was great but the problem is during test I spent so much time on the SAT question that I was not able to finish my essay question…what a bummer and I did full reading on all the topic… huhuhu so sad T-T…in speaking class I realize as an ex debater..my skill are really rusty alredi…..T-T..wuuu~~~ and finally in photography class Mr Zul gave another three assignment to be done!! Aiyo…!!! Pitam!!! Huhuhu!!!! So the next seminar…. There be another 6 assignment!! Returning from campus.. I hit my bed and by the next morning I caught a fever..a normal one but really cause me to shut down all body function. Hahahaha…


Honestly I am not fully recover yet… but it seem today people like to aggravate me so much!.. I know I am a low level clerk, but at least I am trying to help, what the used of all that status when you can’t even help the little people that you are suppose to be helping?? If it is really that important you could at least try to help not pretend you can’t hear me on the phone and switch off the phone when I try to call back… my heart goes to those farmer who are trying the best to get everything done, but then people who was suppose to help them who was paid to help them got too busy with, well I don’t know maybe doing her nail or something…..damn you stupid people!! You give civil servant a bad name!!!!!


But in a way today seem to be a productive way with 2 application approve (by officer from ministry) and got at least 5 % work done on the assignment even with a hectic day…


Hugs my beautiful people!!


The huggable ben

Pangkor Vacation.....!!

So 5th of November ....Its actually the anniversary of a friends passing 5 years ago..but It has been 5 years..and I better celebrate his life rather than continue to be sad. He be in my thought always. This year the date fall on a Saturday and a day before the Aidiladha... and that means an extra day off on Monday... !!!

13th of November 2011 is the 4rd seminar and where 5 assignment are to be handed in. So Today (Tuesday 8th Nov) we will be focusing on all the assignment final touch and my day job too. So to better prepared for a week of full concentration, I need a short vacation .....and island Vacay!! Pangkor!~!~!~!~!..... huuuu!~!!! yeah!! Hehehehe...
So this year, 5 of us went to Pangkor Island....our activity are swimming in the sea, sleeping in a freezing resort room, wacth tv, eat dinner, play card, swimming in the pool, eat late dinner, snacking in front of tv in a freezing room, eat snack, eat breakfast, swim in the sea, continue swimming in the sea, riding around the island atc... so..the summary of activity would be Eat,swim,sleep, wacth tv,swim ..hehehe...yes that the thing that really relax me. I hope my friends enjoy it too. But this is not just a vacay..it is also a mission to finish my assignment for photo communication ..thanks to mang for the info and skill shared....
But the Sea, the wind, the fresh air, the amazing view, the warm sea water, the sun ....really make me melancholy...I started to miss someone...and wishing that someone was there with me....all the way back home I can’t stop thinking about that someone. Erm..... so lar weird.. I guess Island really has a great impact on me.
On the beach I had a lot of thinking done, what if...I finally say it out loud what my heart is saying, would it make any different? Honestly I don’t think so; it may even cause you to lose friends after that. But I always wanted to do so...problem is I am trained to be a nice person, I don’t have the strength to do that since I do not want to lose a friends or someone I care just because I say it out loud. So let’s keep the real Ben inside. Let the world see who they want to see...maybe someday you have that chance to do it.. but it will be when I have nothing else to lose.
Ok need to get back to my assignment this has been a nice break... huhuhu...




The Huggable Ben..

November Vacay!! Yehhhaaa...!!

Yes...it’s true that I did have a lot to say during October...but this time around I can’t even open a word program to write anything... just too hectic to handle two different job at different location at one time. It really give a new understanding on how multitasking really work for you, tapi burn out is indivertible.



But on a light noted I be going on a excursion to an island this weekend. Although it supposed to be a photographic trip where I should be taking pic for the last 4 assignment to be done for Photo communication course. But in reality it a time to relax near the sea...but with the camera at hand why not do another “multitasking” where we enjoy the excursion and finish our assignment at a stress free environment right?


Sociology....this subject fascinate me a lot....I totally would love to take the subject as a major but well I don’t think that is it possible. Since the subject does not have any direct relation with my job as a government entry level staff. These are for researcher level jobs I guess. But nevertheless it is a fun subject where we learn about communities and culture and after we learn the basic we started to see a pattern in our own circle, see the cultural change and the ethno-centric behaviour or how our friends without realizing it is a bit racist in a way. But as a student of sociology we must be un-bias but keep hold of our own understanding.


What I saw at immigration office...what I heard is that the immigrant is taking over; works for the local are limited. But let me ask you youngster.. if I give you RM2500 a month but you would be doing hard labour... would you accept? For the immigrant a month minimum salary here is a year salary in their own country... so yeah of course they would accept the job offer even with minimum pay. Like our nurses here...they are paid RM1800 a month average RM21600 a year. Overseas they are paid RM 12 500 a month an average of RM150000 a year plus two month paid leave....Ngko mmmammpuu??? Hahahahaha..to much exposure to immigration info I guess hahahaha..


I can’t wait for my small vacay this weekend... a nice swim in the sea would be very nice... owh yeah need to get sun block lotion huhuhu...


Salam Aidilahda to all my friends!!


The huggable ben....

The Hectic October

First this is a truly hectic month indeed, and maybe I may need to do more that my normal once a month blog.

The first thing is that, this month we had more than two seminar at the university, got more than 5 assignment and 3 quiz and online assessment to be done. Owh... yes and the reading for the subject also need to be done in order to be able to do the assignment. That not all we had to learn the basic photography technique and the produce a portfolio for it too. Almost all assignment had been done and only the photograph assignment 2 and 3 portfolio is yet to be done...suddenly came the sociology assignment and yes that add to the number of assignment to be done by October although the deadline is in November. The Hectic month of October indeed for me as a student.

Then come the workplace hectic-ness, I was sent to the Immigration department on-loan basis to do some data entry for the ministry, yeah sure seem to be ok at the moment but then come the problem when our officer went on maternity leave and the other officer does not seem to be around. I totally can just say anything to the people coming to the counter but the problem is , it may not be the correct instruction and may lead them to do some unnecessary documentation and further delay their registration. So yeah although we seem to to have anything to do at the moment, we are actually trying to figure out whut are we doing here and what should we do? This is truly a “Tragedi October” situation here...aiyooo... help... dunno what to do at the moment.....!!!
My nephew got bitten by and insect , and i am worry about him,  many more accurance that seem to be centred in October... so yeah a hectic October indeed!!!!

Happppyyy BBBddddaaaayyyyy NNNNNEEPPPHHHEEEWWW ROOMMMEERROOO!!!

The Huggable Ben

The September Skies

Its been a while since i wrote anything but the thing is, i could have not find the word to explain what had happen to me this month, because the fear that the nobility of the event would be obscure by it. but i would like to say something about the changes i see with me...

in September skies after 18th it seem my life have totally change, i used to sleep late because i was watching drama on TV or VCD or Anime...now i am sleeping late because i was catching up on my reading

My bed used to be messy because of magazine and mangga... now, its messy with print out noted and texts books. plus a camera that i borrow for the class on photography.... which remind me

I don't really have a knack with photography, i usually be an object within the photograph, now i am reading and practicing basic technique of photography because it a compulsory subject in my course... but that is justified because my course relay heavy in media so... the need to at least have the basic in photography.

I register as a part time student but it felt like i am a full time student because i am almost always in Campus for the past few weeks to manage my resource and yeah some application for sponsorship and what not.... then i felt student life again.... RM5 can get you a full set of lunch, where as at the office RM5 only get you Afternoon Tea... going to bookstore and spending more time at the reference section rather than the fiction section which is my fav section of all. and actually going to library and do some extra studying,

opening up the computer are not just for reports and facebooking but also to do research for the assignment the lecturer given...

i am a bit tired and sore.. from all the reading and extra traveling... but i am not stress at all...and now i was wondering what with all the stress during full time student life...you have all the time to do reading an assignment and you don't have to plan your study time around your working hour... full time student is a blast in my POV....It what i wanted and what i dreaming of.... me with a student badge... hehehe...and i am thankful for all the hardship it cause me, because it make me felt more alive than before..

Huggable ben

The Miracle of August

15 august 2011… a miraculous day indeed for me.. Because on that day something that I prayed for was answered…. I wanted so bad to return as a student, felt that there just something incomplete that I would really like to get done… and yes it was to continue my studies… these past few years, I can say there are many chances for me to continue but there is always a reason not to. There is the financial reason , the time reason, then the focus reason and many more. So I just justified everything as “it is not my time” to do so.. So I waited and waited and waited until one of my friends say..” ala apply jer ben, dorang terima, ok ler, klu tak dorang ler rugi….” A funny quote from my friend Mohd Farid Shaar…. But dude.. From that quote I followed what you had said and yes I was accepted…with all the obstacle before hand, the path become clearer and everything just become obvious..it is time to return Ben… return back ….and complete the uncompleted mission that has haunted most of your adult (adult??) life….huhuhu…. Like a Rogue ninja, returning to the hidden village to become a legendary Ninja (just watched Naruto….bare with me kay..!)

I like my course coordinator… he called me by my name and not the usual “bob” and actually remember what I say to him during the interview we had….The Name My Parent gave me is JOVEN… not sure if my mum and dad actually knew what the real meaning of it when they gave it to me, but in Spanish It brings the meaning of “Young” it really explain a lot of stuff though… but to hear someone calling you..”mr ‘young’ joven..” is really funny and but I like it because someone actually remember your name and their meaning.

I am a bit homesick also during this month….I miss my baby nephew Elden at home… and of course my nephew Romero too… but during fasting month, when we buy food at the Ramadan bazaar you cant help missing your mother and sister cooking….dun know why but I miss my mum chicken curry and my sis ‘ayam masak kicap’ plus suddenly a few days ago I kinda miss my grandmum fried rice too… been to a few bazaar, yet never seem to find any as good as theirs..

Sent my dear lappy to the lappy hospital, and the diagnose doesn’t seem to be good but what to do, I need it, especially now when half of my subject are writing subject and the mode for study are mainly online forum so…a full upgrade needed hehehe…

The weight update…after 24 day’s of full fasting but grand break-fasting…only manage to shed 5 kg… actually not bad, but if you tell the doc that he would say “you could lose more than that..” But an appa wouldn’t be cute if it look like and eel hound rite…(Ann the last airbender….) huhuhu

That all I guess for now…huhu…

The huggable ben….

End of JULY 2011

(supposed to be posted on 31^st July but just realize that blogger was ban from the com huhuhu..)

As always wasn’t able to do blogging the whole month, actually to be honest I did not really felt the time passing the whole month, I really did not realize that today was the 31^st, and wonder what happen the whole month of July..

I knew a lot had happen in July but I just could not find the time to actually wrote anything….hey I think I have the same line like last month… huhuhu… I really think I need more time for myself…. I want an island retreat …hehehehe… maybe soon I guess…

Some stuff that I felt was not really suppose to happen yet had happen because well the people involve did not think what they did can effect other’s ….you advise other that the thing you do was not for material gain of personal solution to your personal problem yet you tell everyone that’s why those chosen one are allow to do it because “kesian” they have personal problem….So stupid that’s why lar people are talking behind your back. You reason are so selfish. Huhuhu….

But not all that happen during July was bad… I mean Harry potter last movie came out…and It was amazing……a very great end for such an amazing story….. I wish It never end but well a story should have an start and an end….. and it was legendary….

Another Legendary stuff that happen during July was …I went to watch the LIVERPOOL football team playing against Harimau Malaya….as everyone know I am not really a football fan but when we have 85000 people screaming like there is no tomorrow it was an amazing experience ….really amazing indeed

Owh almost forgot the stupid demo that happen at 9 July 2011, I am not sure if they got any massage through.. but I think the guy who had a sex change and die after her pled was rejected made a much more meaning full massage.

Got myself a great book this month and although only gone thorough 40% of it.. I was really nice… only need to find the best time to used it… oh yeah need to find a purple pen for a spell I been practicing hehehe….

Owh yeah July also was the month were I started using crystal again. After a few month I did not use them because guess to much confusion ….happening after the last time.. guess I a crystal user after all..

Erm…. I wanted a galaxy tab….but the whole month of research just advise me that I wouldn’t be suitable for me financially huhuhu… even the big book of everything financial said so…huhuhu…so maybe a playbook instead? Hahahaha….

Missing my dear nephew elden….:-( and nephew Romero too… but that the thing about being a hermit….family are always far away….on our journey to self discovery and cultivation of one own virtue…It a code …so if you don’t understand don’t worry it not meant for you….huhuhu…

Welcome August….bubuy July and also welcome Rahmadan….boleh jadik cam dua tahun lepas tak? Hilang 7kg…well try our best I guess….!!

Saturday morning in June….

I don’t know why I cant seem to find the time and stuff to put in the blog recently… there was a few times where there is a very interesting topic to write about, but then the timing was no rite and at the end of the day never got to write it down…

One thing I learned recently is that what people consider to be an easy job in reality is not..i mean I went to a course recently…and from the detail of the task is not really something easy and there is a lot to do…. But if your good, it seem that it was a simple task indeed..but again when you actually doing it… damnnn so complicated…

Went back home for my annual mid year holiday to relax and recuperated….only have a few day leave so gonna make full use of it…. So really was spending much time with family especially my new nephew Elden….the newest member of the family…wait Elden first name was Jericho….yeah I know Spanish rite… hehehe….just like his uncle … and also went shoping and just generally enjoying myself with sis jess and nephew Robbie….since he finish studying already…CONGRAT nephew Robbie…some ritual was perform at the house after the mystical news of an paranormal engagement. which I am still puzzle why and how did it happen…but I am glad that the ritual when on great and ok I guess..... my schedule during my mid year was so pack that I was not able to meet some of my friends..sowie about that.. some many thing to do yet so little time but at least we enjoyed our time spent together rite..

Came back from the holiday, got a course to attend to at Jalan Elmu,which is a remote institute with no café and the food are ration so yeah I was totally hungry all the time… but then again the trip was fun and the knowledge gain was priceless…the new friends encounter also was great, sharing experience and stories from different department was a good way to learn new and comprehensive method to learn new and exciting technique… was what a long statement hahahahaa….the short version was a camp with children that have a lot of experience to share is always fun… hehehehe..

Currently still in bed listening to radio bayu and reminiscing my home town..huhuhu….

Congrat to Bro Dino on your wedding day ya….. have fun everyone there….(huhu…so sad tak leh join…) huhuhuhu…

The huggable ben on a Saturday morning in June….huhuhu….

Another Feverish weekend I guess…

Another feverish weekend I guess.. body did not feel well since this morning.. and the extra low heat in the office increase the symptom.. a bit blur..low blood sugar.. and sleepiness, huhuhu…. Last fever was 15 of February 2011, It was not really a fever I think but all the symptom was there… lay in bed for the whole afternoon.

A bit late for my bday blog but rite after my bday weekend, my schedule was so pack that I could not squeeze any time to do a single blog.. Accept for the update on facebook.. which well I am addicted to hahahaha….

I think the second last post before this one I wrote something about waiting for something to come and before the news come I am stuck in the hovering stage…. Well the “news” came and it did not goes as plan… but then again the news came during the time when I was very very happy and the effect of the blow was not that hurtful as I tot It might… and the celebration that come after the news came really healed me faster. The next step was to choose the next best step to move on… then I got the call for an interview to go to Korea..it was just an interview but at least this year I am invited to try my luck than last year. So well I am happy about that too.. the next step would be after the month of may so.. for the time being I am still hovering…. Huhuhu….

The Phrase “Just Go With It” was the title of the new Adam Sandler and Jennifer Aniston movie…I haven’t seen the movie yet but the phrase was some how explaining the few stuff happening around me… we all know how the requirement to process some documentation is a bit redundant and really troublesome for those who are not train in it.. what really hurt me in a way, was it because I was the one helping them to prepare the document…?? Cian the person who was doing the process.. Always queried by higher ranking people for the ridiculous request… but I am very thankful of the person doing the process.. and for the higher ranking people…as I am a passive person….”I Just go with it..” at least at the end of the day… my friends which I help still receive what he deserve… Just prove to this higher ranking people that all this while.. you not doing your job…. Plus I know how you come up with the idea… since the source accidently spill her gut while trying to defend your request….no maturity even at that age!! Huhu…

Ok I think I take half day today since boday say go and rest….

So the huggable ben on his way to clinic…..

Cloud on a sunny day…!! wuuu~~~

Today start a bit hectic.. woke up a bit late….running to catch the bus… having coffee on the go.. yet the sun was shining….. I felt very nice…but then again the feeling I had for the past few weeks came to haunt me… I wrote something about waiting for something and because until I got the news I be hovering and waiting for the moment the news to come..I have a feeling that it would not come along my way…so I did prepare a few things to do as a second option …. So at last I got the news….and as I expected it did not go my way.. so to be honest a bit heart broken…but as I learn from many experience.. when god close a door … he open a window…. And I guess I be using the window…after I choose which window to use…. :-P

Strangely I tot I would be more heart broken from the news than what I am felling now…. But I guess the big guy up there have his plan…. So he blessed me with a happy and sunny day today… so when the news come…..it would not hurt that much….and I worked. But then again…. That life…..if life throw you lemons.. you make lemonade..

So even there was a cloud on my sunny day, It was just there to cold down the land a little bit…

Thank you so much for all the De’early Bday Wishes…..and Present too…

The huggable which getting more huggable with a 5 kilo of ice-cream to gobble down!! Hahahaaha

Ben

I am drawing the line…..

There is a limit, there is always a limit for everything, for the good thing and also for the bad….I cant really do anything more, since you had tap out everything out of me… it is here where I draw the line… and say.. this is my limit… no matter how much I wanted to do more, I could not do more than what I had done already… I am waiting for your response, if I did the rite thing you would respond by respecting my decision and appreciate what have I done for you..huhuhu…tapi dalam hati ada gak perasaan would really like to help more…but biler ko nak blajar handle benda ni sendiri….huhuhuhu… huhuhu……..

Rhythm keje minggu ni agak tergangu skit walaupun able to handle everything and today for at least 2 hours my work station was clear.. then it was again fill with task to done before the end of the week…. Which actually is the easy part.. but my mind was not 100% here at the moment…..my mind is far away…waiting…..for something…..because if it did not come then I have the second option ready to go….but until anything can be confirmed I am stuck in the middle….hovering in silent……erm…motivasi takde siot….

A few things to do during lent…..i have list already done let see if I could actually do everything…but for these past few days cam ok lak huhuhu……I would like to be a monk for a couple of week just to get my head together again…huhuu….

Another day and life of…

The Huggable Ben

Archeology of my room and Bee nite..

Yesterday I wrote about house cleaning.. after I posted the blog I went and read all my past blog, and so lar very the eye opener…. I can see that I gradually growing into the person that I am today… although… the stuff that I say I found while cleaning… I bought it in 2008..yes… three years ago… It was there literally untouched…..wow….. it like the pyramid… left to be rediscover after so long… ahahahhaa archeology of my own room hahahahaha……

Bee….nite… semalam pass mandi jer.. tetiba empat ekor lebah masuk bilik dari tingkap…huhuhu…sekor hampir sengat leher kte plak tue… nasib baik ler dah pernah tgk discovery channel pasal lebah ni… guna spray nyamuk untuk peningkan dier pastu penyek ngan majalah huhuhu… tapi malang nyer pepagi tadi muncul lak kekawan dier…..kali ni mmg kene sengat dah dua ekor.. siot jer.. nasib baik ler lebah madu jer bukan tebuan.. ambik antihistamine jap kat klinik tadi.. bengkak pun dah reda dah.. huhuhu….siot jer…am I that sweet that bee envy me? Hahahahaha… I wish…!! Hehehe

Body not feeling very well though today….but can’t slack off must go gym today… huhuhu…just wat yang lite2 jer… over 2 wat pe tul tak? Hehehe…..

So let’s go to the gym…!!!! Huhuhuhu….

The Huggable Ben

March spring cleaning...

Dah seminggu dan novel ni kte beli baru habis beberapa chapter….huhuhu so lar….kte ni lain skit biler baca novel2 ni, selalu day dream…masalahnyer biler dah day dream boleh hanyut trus tertidur.. jadi sepatutnyer membaca tetiba tertidur huhuhu….best gak ler novel “Brida” Penulis Paulo Coelho..huhu… pasal magic2 gak arr…. Hehehe… so selalu membayangkan diri sebagai protagonist dalam ceta ni… best pe..dunia fantasi lebih indah dan my escape form the harsh reality of life…..once you go magic you never go back…. Hahahahaha…..atau ikut min pau2 gebu…once mak esah always mak esah.. hehehe

Minggu ni penuh ngan aktiviti mari Deco2…Salah satu “BIG PLAN OF 2011” hehehe… realize… banyak tul benda kene clear…tapi penambahan haruz perancangan balik sebab macam tak muat jer huhuhu…secara tetiba…luar rumah pun kene cat baru peh… cam tau2 jer deco2 planning siot.. ahahahha…. Tak tahu lak aktiviti cat baru block tue sebenarnya gotong royong… balik2 jer satu block dah kene cat baru..yang tak leh tahan tue color soft pink klu tak silap….ahahahaha…siot jer..

A bit lonely juga sebab…while deco2ing..ternampak few memorabilia yang remind me of thing that has pass…..nice memory from last year and a few years back….found few item that was miss place…and forgotten..my fault actually.. hehehe….but dah jumpa balik kira ok ler boleh teruskan… tapi biler dah jumpa benda2 yang beli time2 tue… trus gi check klu ada barangan baru wakakaka.. online shopping lak siot jer.. abis ler fulus bulan ni hahahaha…..

Isk..... hati tak sabar lak nak tgu keputusan hujung bulan ni.. huhuhu…. Kecut pewot ar… huhuhu ok nak gi wat black coffee lar… baik untuk lawan ngantuk petang2 ni huhuhu….

The huggable ben…..

Blogging time…

I use to lover writing stuff… I used to love putting spoken word into written word. What I strive for is to express myself to the world, a few years back wait….errmm.. I think it was almost Ten year’s ago someone introduce me to blogging…a online way to keep a journal, which I also keep. But a blog is something we share… people then can read it…and reply or something, which at first I kindda like the attention, but again your blog could be the source where people manipulate what you are writing into something that might sabotage you.

Speaking your thought out loud seem to also have pros and cons… I remember last year experience, where my words were twisted and use against me because to the people that matter, my world seem to revolve around them. This is what writer calls a motivation killer. Everything that you write seems too sensitive for other because they would get hurt just by reading it. Although what you were referring to was a complete different thing, something which is not even minutely related to the people that matter. But as the old Malay saying “siapa makan cili, dia rasa pedas” so like whut ever..

So I kinda slowed down in the blogging world, only to do entry when there are something worth sharing to the world, then recently I ask myself, why stop something that I love to do because it might hurt other for the reason that they themselves think I was referring to them?.. Be proud that someone actually thought you were talking about them that people actually read your stuff… so much fun if we see it that way rite?

Anyway…. On this calm march Sunday and on my way to my Sunday Mass hope I could make it in time before it start.. I continue my blogging life…but how long? Let just see first .. if no one kill themselves about what I say here, then I be blogging as much as I can hehehehe…

The Huggable Ben

Cuba Test Try...

Trying some new features on my blogs... huhuhu march 4 test cuba try

1st of march!!!

Whut??? ..its already march? Hehehe.. so lar very the tak terasa masa yang berlalu terlalu laju… huhuhu… Dua bulan tak update blog siot.. ni semua gara gara ketiadaan masa tahap gaban naga emas yang semakin serius…..

Ikut hati dah tak leh tahan ni kene slow down dah.. tapi nak wat cam ner… kang bising lak biler tugas- tugas tue tak selesai….

Homesick skit bebaru ni selepas nephew baru huhuhu…. Nak tgk Elden lar… huhuhu….

Haaaa!! Ayah kte kat klang dah doctor suh makan ubat..kan.. ben dah cakap… tak caya… huhuhu tapi dah makan ubat tue ok ler moga sihat selalu…naseb baek ayah klu tak lama dah kene sekeh ni..huhuhuhu

BIG PLAN OF 2011-this year I have 3 big plan…. Can’t actually reveal it here…since kang malu lak klu tak tercapai… Hahahahaha…….but big plan num one had already attained one item…huhuhu still browsing the rest and planning the execution …

Huhuhuu…pehal lak ler lutut aq hari ni… planning nak gi gym trus tak jadik siot huhuhuhu…
Isk hari ni tak dapat perform sepenuhnyar kerana lutut yang injured ni… huhuhu kene exercise gak tak leh bagi rehat walaupun injured, walaupun main upper body jer gym hari ni huhuhu… seedy lar cardio tak leh wat huhuhuhu……

Baru Nampak pasal network blog ni… nak cuba ler huhuhu… pe2 pun for all marchian….. Its March!!! Hehehe……

Huggable Ben

Mr Krab,Kamen Rider Heart and My New Year Resolution

About Mr Krab…I was window shopping with my young nephew at 1 Borneo, we were walking down the stair when he ask me..”angkol why do you walk sideway when you going down the stair…” I tot what an innocent question..so I answer “angkol is a big guy.. walking side way like this help to stabilize myself on the stair…” Then again my young nephew answer “ But then angkol you walk like a krab lar..” aiyo…….wakakakakaka… so to Pau, amir si mata hijau and Smuffx wan…..it’s official…Ben the Crab…wakakakakakakaka….

About Kamen Rider Heart…I was back at my home town…so mmg banyak ceta there lar…another nephew was talking about Kamen Rider, this is during their time, During my time it was Power Ranger,Mask Rider(suria perkasa baja hitam) Tentera Semut and The most famous one…GABAN!! Huhuhu.. so was watching kamen rider (not sure which episode) I was thinking about the armor heart the way we protect our heart..i remember writing something about building a wall around my heart and then again it was to protect me from getting hurt all over again…and now? Well kira cam kamen rider sudah…it will open up when love come near but then morph into an armor when it get too intense..It keep slapping me saying elo jangan ober lar.. ingat nnt ko jugak kiciwa… hehehehe…But Undoubtedly my heart was happy, really happy in the year 2010 for many things happen during this year, which is so memorable to me.

My New Year Resolution…Bah…. Mari kita senarai azam baru…. Ermm don’t be shock

· * Be Vegetarian For A month (I know..this is not possible and can I really do it??….but the great spirit ask me to do it because i was “jajal” in the house….hehehe…(The great spirit want to get to know you nephew…) So gonna pick one month to be total Vegetarian.

· *Read more than 8 novel this year….(I finish 7 novel last year..hope would find more time to read)

· * Renew all my license and maybe get a few new one too (DIVEMASTERS,PARAMEDIK {SJAM} ETC..)

· *Get all my meds reduce…(means managing my body so well that less visit to the doc is require..)

· *I manage to lost 7kg last year, gain it back after i got injured at the gym so gonna try to lose 8kg and try not to gain it back hehehehe…..

· *Go swimming more than twice a week…. Presint 5 have a very nice pool with very nice view… sapa mau join ? hehehe….

· *Master a new language(Or at least able to converse in it)….(Mandarin or Japanase?)….. hehehehehe….

· *Do more spells…(mak esah?? Season of the witch? Tak arr.. Charmed ler…) hehehehe…

· *Overall…Become a warm fuzzy bear…..

So let see.. what the year of the Golden Rabbit bring for me…..FYI Blue Sapphires…are dammnnn expensive *wink*wink hehehe…..