Décor Weekend……

I spend the whole weekend redecorating my room plus cleaning old stuff. Why? Well the other day while waiting for my favorite show which is midsummer murder on hallmark channel, I was watching Oprah… they were talking about “it’s just to much!” is about how me tend to keep stuff and our home become to messy (yes… it “was” messy…!).

In the program they introduce a few technique on how to purge of unusable stuff or unneeded stuff because let face it… if you don’t need and use them…why in the hell would you keep them?... By the end of the two day which I sleep outside my room because the cleaning and redesigning was still undone. I manage to compile six garbage bag of stuff to throw away. I surprise even myself..

I finally realize that for the past year I being collection junk so severely that my room usable space was like only 20%. After cleaning and redecorating I got back the 60%. More space, more cleanly, more smile… hheheehehehe…

I was very tiring indeed to move all the stuff anf furniture around but I finally finish it… and proud of myself I guess ..Hebat juga ben ni kam…!!!

The huggable ben

Hari yang malas…..

It was strange to actually to even have this Phase late in the year… normally the laziness syndrome happen early in a year rite after holiday, Laziness syndrome is similar to burn out. But probably it was the new system at work, which present a problem, because I was the only one who have clearance to use, but it was critical task so, if I am not there no one else can do it.(or none would cover for me) which also mean this might effect my holiday plan this year end….

Plus I think I just need a single day break which I only spend with myself. That a good cure for burn out I guess, with the amount of stuff happening that cause you to burn out, just having time just for yourself help a lot…

I took a leave today, because I couldn’t wake up, burn out symptom #1 your mind is telling you body to do something but the body just wont do it. Although I took an off day, and I have the time to actually go anywhere I like. I cant bring myself to walk out the house, just wanted to rest.. and rest…. Before you knew it…. It already 4 pm….the whole day I was just sitting in front of the tv…

Strangely at the moment I felling perk up, I wanted to go out… and smile and I think I go grocery shopping. Hehehe…. I wish there a swimming pool near here…. Other than shopping swimming calm me down hehehe…..

Walau apa pun , hari ini memang hari yang malas buat saya…. Hehehehe…..

Hugs

The Huggable Ben

I Have move on….

I had to face a dilemma recently.. I was stuck in the middle of a controversy which took a twisted route. I now realize people may advise to you that you need to move on but the truth is they could never accept that you did, because it means that I don’t need them anymore….

I tried my best to be diplomatic…I try ever single way that I know of in trying to be fair to everyone. But I was not the newcomer…so why must I leave? Why must I get emo about it… I don’t need too…. So why must I look and act like how you like me to act which is miserable, why cant you accept that I am happy? And I have move on….to the next level… and if you could not accept it.. that your problem not mine… stop trying to connect me with it… face your one demon and don’t try to put the blame on me just because I finally happy with myself now and not miserable like you think I should be. Please knock of the drama… I really don’t need it….and so does everyone else…

But being the cheerful person I am, I can totally put this dilemma aside and move on to a more cheerful topic… this is the 13th day of fasting which I am able to complete, I miss a few days hehehe… and I lost 1 kg of my weight…. See….hehehe my diet working… hehehe…hey plus I got an invite for a sabatikal trip to Cairo… how kwel is that huh? Hehehe…. But it is still in process so no comformation yet… ( but I really hope it was.. hehe…!)

The Huggable Ben

ACCCHOOOO………!!!!

After a few days of feeling feverish, It finally came, my 1st cold fever…. I been sneezing since last nite… took med which cause you to get sleepy and woke up late this morning….. although I manage to catch the early bus then the problem arise when I arrive at the office I still cant stop sneezing.. I think I am taking off early today so I can go to the clinic…

Cold fever for me are much more uncomfortable than the last fever.. because of the running nose and the sneezing… the last fever I just felt warm and tired.. isk… siot jer…

But at least I know what am gonna have for breaking fast later….. a warm Nescafe tarik….. plus I wanted to try the new KFC product.. can’t remember it’s name, but all my friends say it was nice… but definitely I need my Nescafe first…..but at least it a bit easier fasting with a fever.. you don’t seem to have a mood to eat anything…… although my tummy is grumbling like there is a soccer tournament in there,,, hehehehe

Hugs to all….. and selamat berbuka…….

The Huggable Ben