New place, New task, New life in the small town

I wanted to write about the yellow car theory before this, it been a while since i wrote anything but yet i almost lost my way and almost chose to end it all and start a new, but i was given a chance to well hope for the best and try to go through it with my head hail high about the water that was trying to drown in for the past year.

Since the start of the issue last year where it was among the best time of my life. But as experience had told me before once you were on top of the world you be down at the bottom before you know it and yes it was what actually happen to me the whole of 2018 till 2019 but it was almost like i found a flotation device and had a few aha moment that guide me through it all and perseverance was what i took from it and it lead me to where i am now.

Before the issue was resolve i was treated like a sacrificial lamb that was going to be sacrifice anytime soon and everyone whom i tot was a friend at that time was there watching all the way until out of the blue it was decide that i was saved from it and it should had ended just like that. But nahh... it wouldn't be as simple as that. it would be more than just a simple let go. I was relocated... hence no more chubby Ben in the big City but chubby Ben in the small town. In a way it was what the big guy up there had planned. Here i got to practice a pure way of hermetic-ism. Simple life it what i always advocate in so many way hence here is where i can do that.

Sad thing about all of this is that a project that i started with some of my friend never get finished i was wounded and was not able to get back the momentum that was need to completed the journey of that particular project hence i was unable to complete it. Although i have thought of great deal about it and found that it was just not meant to be at all. I did not regret it that i was not able to finish it off i have learn a lot from it but i was sad that i have to let down some people who have high hope that it would be done. In my heart i would have love to complete it but it was just not meant to be, all plan that i have planed to do to complete it was canceled by all the issue that have arise since the incident last year.

But well i hope we will start a new journey at a new place and with new people, trust are not easily given now but i wont be a dark joker whom had been hurt o many time but something like hayley quinn that seem nice but well let just say would never be that nice for anyone to step on me again without repercussion...

your sincerely the hug gable Ben